Sunday, December 30, 2007
So...today I have consumed 32 ounces!!! Woo-hoo. And I have another 32 ounce bottle waiting for me. Will I make it to 64 ounces?
Saturday, December 29, 2007
I just ordered Tae Bo Amped. Thanks Kelly. I got confirmation that it shipped so maybe it will be here next week.
In the mean time, I need to clean my house. It is GROSS. I have made attempts but haven't done it. Here comes the excuses. #3 has been a terror the past few days. She's clingy, wants to be held, and fusses alot. I don't know if it's her ears but that will be taken care of on the 4th when she goes in to have tubes put in her ears. I would love it if I got my old baby back--the independent HAPPY baby-the best baby in the world. Sadly, as much as I say "Oh, her ears are just bothering her", I don't think that's the reason for her mood. Anyway, cleaning hasn't really happened because I am busy consoling her or she's in bed and I am afraid to make any noise in the kitchen that might wake her. The rest of the time I am trying to catch a nap. Like now. I desperately want to take a nap. But after a playdate for #1 and #2, I came home to find her sleeping on the couch with my husband. Great. No nap for me. She's sitting in her high chair with cheerios for now. That doesn't help my nap situation. So why don't I start to clean? Because as soon as I catch her eye, she will scream. Grrrrrrr......
#2 is cleaning up a storm for me. She's begging me to let her wash dishes and she's going around with a wash cloth "washing" everything in sight. Even the kitchen floor. She's a help--sort of. We don't keep cash but Clint happened to have $2.50 and he gave it all to her for her efforts.
#1 earned $1.00. I couldn't find my coffee and I told the kids that whoever found it would get a dollar. She found it. Luckily I had a jar of change!
Anyway, I am off to clean...or nap...or something. Ideally, I would like for BOTH to happen because, well, bed time isn't for another 10 hours.
Today is arms day! Yeah!!! I couldn't find 8 lbs weights in this podunk town (Wal-Mart is sold out) so I went up to 10lbs. I think it will be heavy, but the 5lb weights are too light--even for my triceps, which typically needs less weight. Kelly told me not to ditch the light weights because there are times when they come in handy. She said there is some DVD that she workouts to and they use like 2 or 3 lb weights and she's dying from it. That's what I want to feel!
So, in the words of the Dwarfs from Snow White...Whistle while you work....(Whistle, whistle, whistle)
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I weighed 128.2 today. Not too bad considering I haven't been trying to lose weight. While it is a HUGE goal of mine, I haven't been 100% motivated. I am often filled with excuses--my knee was hurt, the baby was up in the living room and I didn't want to work out because she would get in the way, I had to cook dinner, I didn't feel good, I had to go shopping. While they are all valid excuses, they're still that--an EXCUSE. If I had time to watch House, I had time to workout. If I had time to take an hour nap on the couch before bed, I had time to work out. So what if I had to shop or the baby is still up. With the exception of getting home eat 11pm, there's no valid reason for not doing it. I normally go to bed around 10. The baby is in bed by 8. I am finished with dinner by 8. Yes, I am more than happy to sit around and watch TV or take a nap but you know why, I need to get off my ass and work out. I can watch TV while I am doing it or after. I can sleep after. Hell, I have time to update my blog and check e-mail and message boards but no time to work out. So I say. There is ALWAYS time to work out. ALWAYS. I chose NOT to find that time. I chose to do something else. Well, this is all about to change.
I just found some before and after pics taken a few years ago. I was about 148 in the before and probably 128 in the after. I got down to 115 so I was smaller. But I was disgusted with how I looked. Yes, you could tell a difference in the pics but I don't look good at 128. I had my husband take pics of me a few months ago but I have lost them. He kept on showing people the pics on the camera (of other things) and i know I deleted them but I thought I had saved them. Guess not. I will take some more possibly today. Anyway, I am not happy AT ALL With the way I look. Even at 115 I still have flab. I don't want that. I want to be a tones, tight, 115.
My stomach will never be perfect. It won't even be close to perfect. I gained way too much weight with my first pregnancy and the damage was done. I do not have elastic skin. Even if there weren't any stretch marks, I sill have loose skin. I saw a plastic surgeon and she said the only thing I can do to get rid of it is have a tummy tuck. Did I mention that I store fat in my stomach? So even if I had essentially NO body fat, I would still have the saggy skin. Also, I had an appendectomy and they had to cut me open because my appendix had ruptured. I have a 4 inch (crooked) scar from my belly button down. So, with the scar, loose skin, and stretch marks, no matter how little body fat I had, the abs will never be right without a tummy tuck. I do plan on going that route ONE DAY. But no time soon. In the mean time, I plan on really focusing on the body parts that are visible. I don't plan on wearing a bikini out, I don't wear shorts that often, but I wear tank tops all the time! I want to have killer arms! I won't neglect my legs or my abs, but I know they will get the least visibility. I want arms to die for!!!
Since I am writing a "to-do" list, I HAVE to drink more water. I HAVE to. I do not consume anywhere near 64 ounces of liquid a day---no coffee, coke, water, tea, etc. I just don't drink fluids. Never did. If I get 20 ounces of liquid in my body, it's a good day. Seriously. I typically have headaches and my husband said it's probably because I am in a constant state of dehydration. Sure, I walk around with a dry mouth, but I never do anything to cure it--i.e. DRINK something. So, my goal is to consume 64 ounces a day. And not just 64 ounces of anything. 64 ounces of water. Now, I will cheat and put the crystal light packets in it. If you're relying on me to drink plain water, FORGET it.
I haven't quite devised my work out plan. I plan on using the bowflex and free weight until I can get more free weights. This is a sad story but right now, 5 lbs is what I am using. I tried the 10 lb weights but they were still too heavy and the stores around here are sold out of the 8lb weights. When I first started working out YEARS ago, the most I could use was 2 lb weights. When I stopped going to the classes (in 2004) just a couple months later, I could lift 15 lbs for my biceps and 12 for my triceps. So, laugh at the 5 lbs weights but remember, I am just starting again. Anyway, I absolutely hate the bowflex so.....
I also want to use my exercise trampoline while I am watching TV. See, I told you I could watch TV and work out. I don't watch that much TV so, I think a rule will be if I am watching TV, I will be using the trampoline. In addition to that, I have some cardio DVD's/tapes--kickboxing and Tae Bo. I will add those in as well. And, I have my Yoga Booty Ballet DVD's that I want to use. It's mainly toning. Oh, I also have some steps and The Firm tapes. I can do that too. Did I mention I have free access to a gym at work. I really can't go after work because there's no one to take care of the baby, but I think I may go 3 days a week to get in some cardio. Hey, speaking of excuses, I can't whine about not working out at home. Hello, I could've done it during the day at work! Back to the point at hand, the only classes I can attend are Yoga and Pilates, which is fine by me.
I guess I will close this novel. The main point is that I need to work out. Period.
Monday, December 24, 2007
Tonight we had Christmas Around The World. I wanted to do something a little different. Growing up, we had a remake of Thanksgiving at Christmas--turkey, ham, dressing, etc. When I got married in 1999, my then husbands mom made brisket on Christmas to get a break from the turkey. When I got remarried and spent the previous 2 Christmas holidays with my current husbands family, they had enchiladas because it was easy to make and they were feeding like 20 people. Fast forward to today. I didn't want turkey, so I opted for change. I did some research about different cultures holiday meals but discovered turkey and ham was kind of common. So was goose and friend carp. No thank you. So, instead of making traditional holiday food, I made "regular" food.
Shrimp Scampi (Italy)
Red Cabbage with apples and bacon (Germany)
Gnocchi in Vodka Sauce (I think it's Italian but I got the recipe from a Hungarian, so we'll go with Hungary)
Yakimando (Korea-courtesy of Jill)
Crab Rangoon (China-Jill)
Everything was great except for the Gnocchi. I couldn't find it pre-made so I had to make it myself. I don't think it turned out just how it was supposed to but it was interesting to make. The vodka sauce wasn't quite right. Nick, Jill's husband picked it up for me and didn't realize it was Orange Smirnoff. So it had an orange flavor--NOT what I was looking for. But it was okay. I am from Louisiana and usually won't eat shrimp anywhere but there--it's just not right. But the scampi turned out GREAT!!!! And the Yaki and Rangoons were hand made. It was GREAT too!
I haven't kept up with my workouts. Over the past two years, I am full of excuses. This is about to change. I will post another blog about my excuses and how I hope things will change!!!
Merry Christmas to all....
And to all Goodnight!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I ate a piece of pecan pie (1/16 of the pie). Gasp.
I ate about 3/4 cup ice cream.
Today wasn't nearly as bad. Not quite.
Coffee with creamer and sugar (half the usual amount if I may add) (100)
Kashi oatmeal (150 calories)
Sometimes I don't get around to eating until 10:00, but this morning I was chowing down at 8:40. I know this because I had to stop to fit someone with a gas mask and had to annotate the time.
Chicken salad (chicken breast, 4 baby dill pickles, 1 tsp mayo, 2 tsp mustard, 2 green onions) I have no idea how many calories. Let's go with 300. I truly think this is on the high side. But I did have mayo. Alright, I'll cut it down to 250.
Lunch was at 1:00. I had to go to Commander's call then go shopping for office Christmas cards. I was still starving after that so I ate a bag of baked lays (110). I probably wasn't really hungry but I ate so damn fast, it felt like it.
Baked cheetos (120). STARVING again.
Meatballs (about 5 of them)
Shame on me here. I wanted to see what they tasted like before I brought them to work tomorrow for an office party. I think I ate 5 of them. THAT WAS 280 calories!!!!!
I wish I had paid attention sooner. And to think, I was just taste tasting.
1 cup whole wheat pasta (180)
1 cup turkey italian sausage, green peppers, onions, jalapenos, spaghetti sauce. One sausage has 140 calories. I know I didn't eat a whole one. But I am going to say that whole concoction had 210 calories. Just rounding up. I think it's better to round up and say you had more, than to lie to yourself and say you had 1000 calories when it was closer to 1800.
1 Andies Mints to kill the onion funk breath. (50)
Grand total for today:
I really think I rounded a little high, but I would rather be higher than lower. 1450 isn't bad. I should probably eating that much on a daily basis instead of the 1000+ that I was eating last week. I noticed my appetite has grown tremendously. I DID workout Sunday, but I doubt that has anything to do with it. I think my stupid period is causing this. If I am still eating like a savage beast next week, I will re-evaluate things. I did NOT work out yesterday. I took a bath before I worked out (weird, I know) and for some reason I was on my knees and noticed that my hurt knee is just that-HURT. It still hurts. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....Excuses, excuses. I have been using the bowflex. If I follow that plan, I will only do like 3 leg exercises and I don't feel that's enough, so I was going to couple that with the Yoga Booty Ballet. However, most of the time is spent on my knees and that's not going to happen with by bum knee. I guess I'll start on my legs in about a week or so. I am *hoping* it will be completely healed by then. The good news is that my arms are okay. I'm off to work them!
I caved in and ate the following:
1 small box of nerds
1 small pack of skittles
1 peanut butter candy
1 piece of chocolate
1 small laffy taffy.
Yes, I just ate 5 pieces/packs of candy. It really wasn’t THAT much. I just looks bad on paper. I had a decent day today other than that. I ate ½ bag of pretzels (55 calories). For lunch I had a salad, to include about ½ cup of tuna salad and ½ cup of crab salad (I am realistically rounding up) and ½ of a chicken gumbo. I know those two aren’t the best for me. At least I balanced it out with lettuce. I also had a WW Smart Ones English Muffin for breakfast and some coffee with creamer and sugar. That’s nothing new. I started my period on Friday and it’s really kicked in today. It seems like I am starving today. I’m going to do my best to refrain from eating until I get home. I have about an hour and a half to go. I will survive. Dinner will be cabbage and potatoes and tilapia (if my husband can find it to thaw). As much as I HATE working my legs (see post from yesterday) I AM going to work my legs tonight. I will hit the bowflex and might even get my Yoga Booty Ballet on.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
The other day I noticed the shoulder exercise hurt my elbows, so I pulled out the free weights to work my shoulders. Also, I didn't think the triceps workout really worked my triceps. I felt it in my biceps. So I used the free weights to get in an extra triceps workout. Speaking of triceps. Have I told you that I HATE working my triceps? I LOVE to work my biceps, but I hate working triceps. Also, I thought I could save time so I was trying to do both triceps at the same time. For the next set I decided to work the right one first then the left. That worked much better. I could actually feel it.
Tomorrow I get to work the legs. Oh joy. Typically, I have great legs. Did I tell you I HATED working the legs? I HATE it? When I was taking a sculpting class I resented it because #1-it hurt and #2-I had great legs. But, the other night I pulled out a pair of size 5 jeans. I was surprised that I could get them buttoned. Then I looked down and noticed it looked like they were plastered to my legs. WHAT???? Were my legs THAT big? I guess I am packing on some fat in that area. Those jeans did NOT fit like that before. Guess I better suck it up and work my legs.
I did okay today with eating. I made some cabbage and potatoes (no sausage) and some chicken and dumplins. I've eaten both on and off today. If I had to guess (and this is all it is), I'd say I had about 1 cup of raw cabbage, 2 cups of cooked cabbage and potatoes, and maybe 2 cups of chicken and dumplins. The cabbage and potatoes consisted of being sauteed in cooking spray, then seasoned with Season All, Tony's, Garlic, Onion Powder, and Salt. The dumplins were made with 2 chicken breast, 1 can of fat free chicken broth, 1 can of cream of chicken soup (not sure if it was fat free. It sure came out of the can like it was) and 1 can of biscuits. I noticed that the can said 1 serving of the biscuit was 100 calories. Not sure how much 1 serving was though. And the can is in the trash. I also ate 2 pieces of frosted mini wheats, about 15 cheerios, and 2 cups of coffee with sugar (gasp) and White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Creamer. I think AT MOST I had 1200 calories. Tomorrow I am going to make chicken salad--1 chicken breast, green onions, pickles, mustard, and about 1tsp of mayo. I may bring some wheat toast to accompany it. Not sure about breakfast. If I have any smart ones English Muffins, I may have one. If not, if I can remember a spoon and bowl, I'll have oatmeal. Dinner will be cabbage and potatoes, but since I Have to feed Clint too, I will probably make some fish to go with it.
There you have it. I'm not doing too bad! Yeah! 115 will be here sooner than I expected it!
Saturday, December 15, 2007
How many kids do you have?
I have 3.
My husband has a daughter.
So you have 4.
Well, I guess.
I guess it's hard to remember I have 4 because #1-I've only given birth to 3. #2-She doesn't live with us. Outta site, outta mind. #3-I see her like once a month. When you couple those 3 things together, surely you can understand why I say I only have 3.
As far as my blog intro is concerned, I only have 3. This blog is my tool for weightloss--the weight gain caused by BEING PREGNANT. So for those of you that now know I technically have 4 kids but don't see the SD (Do we call her #4???--even though she falls 3rd in line) in the intro, you know why. She had nothing to do with the weight gain.
Friday, December 14, 2007
I am thankful to have her in my life for when I have my little melt downs. She may be on the other end of the e-mail rolling her eyes, but at least I am able to talk to her. I've had so many people tell me "You look fine the way you are." Screw you. It's not about what YOU think, It's about how I see MYSELF. But....I don't want people to see me as okay. I want to be hot. Anyway, I wanted to share with you what I shared with her last night.
The past few days, I have been consuming under 1100 calories. I have only been eating when hungry. Once I get back to working out religiously, I will increase my calories because I will be hungry. Anyway...I recently bought a digital scale and it had been telling me I was anywhere from 130-133 lbs. I got on it last night and it said I was 135 lbs. I was livid. Granted, I was completely dressed and it was in the evening, but come on, how did I pack on THAT many lbs? There was NO way. Well, I am happy to report that I got on there this morning and it said.....
Here comes the tada........
128.2! (I even got on my dial scale, the one that wouldn't move from 125, and it said I was 122!!!!)
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
- WW Smart Ones English Muffin (200)
- Bumble Bee Chicken Salad with Crackers (230)
- 1/2 V8 (35)
- 1/2 flavored water (50)
- 3 sunchips (30)
I think dinner's going to be veggie chili. So far I have consumed 545 calories. I will only have about 400 for dinner. From the looks of it, I may be consuming too FEW calories. I had around 1040 last night and the scale showed a GAIN of 2 lbs. WTF. For those of you losing weight, should I force myself to eat more?
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I went in to work an hour late this morning so I didn't have my coffee until after 10am. By the time I was hungry, it was 11am and I felt it was too late to eat breakfast food, so I ate about 3/4-1 cup of potato/broccoli/cheese soup. At 1pm I was hungry so I hit the break room looking for some baked chips. To my surprise (yeah right) there wasn't much food in there (biscotti anyone) so I grabbed a cup of raman noodles (290 calories). As I am eating them I notice how gross they are and email my good friend Kelly (http://kellyolexa.blogspot.com/) and tell her how gross they are and that eating slowly helps me realize that. When I get home I start dinner. I had 3/4 of a turkey burger with steak sauce (no bun--about 3 ounces of meat), 1/3 cup of mixed veggies, and maybe a cup of some chicken/broccoli flavored pasta with broccoli. The pasta is supposed to have 290 calories when cooked, but that's with 2% milk and 2tsp butter. I used skim milk and skipped the butter. I also had a few swipes of frosting from that damn birthday cake. I do not feel guilty for this because I have learned that if I crave something, then I need to eat it--but only a few bites--to get it out of my system. In the case of the cake, I wasn't craving it, but I saw it, I wanted it, and I ate it. I lost 30+ lbs in the past and I ate cheesecake, so that frosting won't kill me. Anyway, I am stuffed and there really wasn't that much food on my plate. I am sure I will be starving soon. I'll deal with that when the time comes.
Monday, December 10, 2007
1/2 cup rice
3/4 cups white beans with 4 small slices of sausage
1 packet Kashi Oatmeal (yes, I had breakfast and lunch mixed up)
Snack: 1 1/4 cup of tomato soup with 5 triscits
1/3 turkey (93/7) manwich on whole wheat bun
1 cup of broccoli/potato/cheese soup made with 2 cups skim milk, 3 cups broccoli, 1 medium/large potato, and 1/2 cup shredded cheddar. Oh, and the soup mix pack.
I think I consumed around 300 calories for dinner. Not bad if I may say so. One of my goals is to eat several small meals a day. IF I AM HUNGRY.
Cheat: 1 swipe of frosting from cake. BAD SHERRY.
I am certain I could've made better choices today but I had to eat what was in the house. I was home sick. I didn't have a vehicle. That didn't' matter. It was too freakin cold to go outside and I wasn't driving 14 miles to town to get something healthier. I will utilize what I have in my house, then shop for "better choices" later.
Here's some meals for later this week:
Turkey burger (no bun), pasta with broccoli, and mixed veggies
Chicken and dumplins (VERY BAD SHERRY) made with boiled chicken breasts, canned biscuits, chicken broth, and cream of chicken soup
Tomato gravy with rice, mustard greens, and butter beans. Hey, I am from Louisiana and I haven't had this in a LONG time. It takes me back to my childhood. I like it!
Cabbage, Potatoes, and Turkey Sausage
Veggie Chili made with corn, kidney beans, and tomatoes topped with light sour cream. YUM.
Maybe next week you will see grilled chicken or baked fish with loads of veggies. In the mean time, I'm eating what I've got!
I have the following DVD's: Several Yoga Booty Ballet's, 10 Minute Kickboxing Solution, Tae Bo, The Firm.
I have a bowflex.
I have a mini-trampoline.
I have free weights.
I have weighted balls.
I have resistance bands.
I also have free access to the gym on base.
I have NO excuse to not work out.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
If you know me, then you will know with any story comes a background story.
2 weeks ago when we went to Texas, we grabbed Burger King for Breakfast. My husband ended up getting sick to his stomach. He didn't vomit, but I bet he wanted to. To make matters worse, what shoud've only been an 8 hour drive (yeah, ONLY), turned into a 12 hour fiasco due to some snow.
Fast forward to present day. We went back to Texas. I make eggs, potatoes, onions, mushrooms, sliced turkey, and cheese for breakfast. On our way out of town my husband (who is hungover) decides he's hungry so we stop at McDonalds. I wasn't really hungry. I broke the carnal rule--DO NOT eat unless you are hungry. All I ate was a hamburger with extra pickles (like 250 calories). Shortly after that, my stomach started cramping. So for 8 hours now I have been dealing with these stomach pains. All of the kids had a hamburger too, so I don't know if that was the true cause. We've all eaten the same things this weekend but I don't think anyone else feels ick. The first thing I do when I get home is run for the Mylanta. Not making me feel better. I feel like I am hungry, then again my tummy hurts. Maybe I will eat, throw up, then feel better??????????? Wishful thinking.
A few days after my husband caused my accident (see story about steps), he somehow cut the tip of his finger off at work. Karma is a bitch. Hmmmmm.....he had a tummy ache two weeks ago now I have it....WTF did I do to deserve payback????
Needless to say, there will be NO working out, in spite of wanting it in my mind.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
anyway, I have an interview tomorrow with a Commander on base. All of my "dress" clothes are too small. I have *some* that fit, but I kind of look like a rag doll. I can wear jeans at my current job, so I didn't have to worry about the "dress" clothes.
I swore I wasn't going to buy anymore clothes. I have a TON of clothes in the closet. Problem is I can't fit in them. I said I wasn't going to buy new clothes; instead I would just lose the weight. Well, each month I end up buying some article of clothing. I try to buy the smallest size possible because "I am going to lose weight soon, and I want to be able to wear it later." Not this time.
I *could've* bought the size 7 pants (I didn't even try on 4's) but they were a little snug. The 9's fit so much better. I know I will regret this in a few months when I do lose the weight. I will DEFINITELY regret it if I don't get this job. That means I will have pants that are too big that have never been worn. I guess I could always take them back and get a smaller size if I don't get hired. The problem is, everything is on clearance. With the holiday season approaching, what are the chances my size will be there? Geeze...maybe I should've bought the smaller pants. Ugggg......
Anyway, I spent $200 and got 3 pairs of pants, 5 or 6 tops, 4 shirts for my husband, a quilt, and 400 count sheets. I saved over $200. The sheets are pink btw, not my favorite color for bedding, but come on, the sheets were regularly $119 and I got them for $34.99. I think I got a good deal. Also, I bought myself 2 pairs of shoes, #3 a pair of shoes, and # 1 or # 2 a purse for X mas and only spent $63. Go me!
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Here's another angle:
I fall asleep watching TV. The only light on is the light from the TV. I get up to go to bed and I go to lock the door. Can you guess what happened? I tripped over the stuff and landed near the door. My knee is jacked up as is my hand. Do you know what my husband has to say? "You saw me put the stuff there." He moves everything to the left like so:
By the way, this entry way is 8 feet wide. The photo below is meant to help you understand that.