Sunday, January 27, 2008
I am 28 years old. I am 5'2-5'3 and weight about 128 lbs. I gained weight in basic training (14 lbs)because that was the first time I actually sat down and ate 3 meals a day, but I lost that about 3 months later. I gained weight because I was pregnant. I lost that then gained weight again because I was pregnant. I lose that then gained weight for the hell of it. Then I lost it and gained weight again...because I was pregnant. Can you believe that someone had the nerve to tell me this:
Sounds like you did a lot of yo-yo'ing up and down the scale.
Yeah, I did have a lot of yo-yoing up and down on the scale. But that was because I WAS PREGNANT. If you took that factor out, I've only gained weight twice. And shit, I probably would've only gained weight once if I didn't have kids.
I guess this rant is about people that are WAY out of shape and have NO RIGHT giving out weight loss advice, but do so anyway. I haven't really been trying to lose weight this past year. So that's why I am only about 10 lbs less than I was a year ago. But you have person X that has been working her ass off for I don't know how long and has hit a plateau and can't get off. SHE has the nerve to tell people what to do. Clearly you aren't doing it right or else you wouldn't be stuck for so long while working your ass off. Then there's person Y that weights about 2X as much as you that tries to give you weight loss tips. Um, when you are a success story and you get down to my weight, THEN you can lecture me. But in the meantime, DON'T go there.
I just love it when people think they're experts at something that they clearly AREN'T. I love, love, love those people that know everything about working out, dieting, exercising when they have no credentials to work it off. Do I consider myself an expert in a field? Um...no. But hey, I know more than these people. Why? I do research. And I have results to show for it.
I hate people. I really, really do. And Kelly, if you're reading this, you know EXACTLY what I am talking about.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
#1-The marathon. I plan on running in the OKC Memorial Marathon on April 27. My boss, who is in his 50's--maybe late 40's, is running the full 26 miles. 5 of us decided to do the relay portion. At first I thought I would run the half marathon but when I realized how far it was, I changed my mind. 3+ miles may not seem like a big deal to some, but for me, it's a huge thing. I am so excited about this. If you would like to learn more about this marathon, take a peek at the page:
#2-I went to runnersworld.com to set up a training schedule per the advice of several people. Looks like I will be running about 3 days a week. I have a 13 weeks training schedule. If I can't run 3 miles, somethings wrong with me.
#3-So I fell off the wagon. I don't think I've worked out since Monday. Once I measured myself, all bets were off. I have seriously been too frazzled to workout. It's not an excuse; I'm just telling you how it is. I had planned on getting to it tonight but it's rather late. Tomorrow is a new day. Heck, it's a new week! I'll get back on track. Promise.
#4-Next week IS a new beginning. I plan on tweaking my diet and starting my running plan. I will run during the day and do Tae Bo, Yoga, and Yoga Booty Ballet by night. I don't know how I won't be in great shape by the end of April. I have 13 weeks to look good. Can't run if I don't look good!
#5-I really need to clean this place. Clint told me that his friend was coming the first of February. When's that? Oh, next Friday. Not sure if Wes will get here by then, but it is the first of February. Tomorrow evening we're going to dinner at a friends house so that takes away part of my time. Then Clint wants to go ride his 4-wheeler tomorrow. I REFUSE to clean this place alone. I don't make the mess alone, I won't clean it alone. And as you know, he has more free time during the week than I do. Also, if he's gone tomorrow, that leave ME with the baby. That equals NO cleaning!
#6-I finally cleaned out my car--sort of. At least I threw out the trash. Most of it was junk mail. I just toss it in my car when I get it from the P.O. I started to vacuum it, but changed my mind about that. I thought I would do it later but NOPE...didn't happen. At least most if it is clean!
That's it. Not such an exciting post. Sorry.
When I grow up
I know what I want to be when I grow up. Actually, that's not an accurate statement. I aspire to be an attorney but that's not going to happen in the near future. Instead of dreaming about other professions, I dream about things I want to do with my life. Here's the short list I came up with today:
- Run in a marathon
- Teach Pilates
- Own a health food/medicine store
- Learn (more) about aromatherapy
- Grow a HUGE herb garden (that won't die)
- Learn French, Spanish, German, Russian, Italian, Japanese, and Mandarin Chinese
- Travel to England, Scotland, Ireland, France, Spain, Italy, Germany, Egypt, and the Mayan and Incan Ruins
Oh, I forgot. I am going to write a book too.
I'd better get moving. I'm going to be 30 in a little over a year. Well, here's the good news. I am working out, so inevitably I will look great for my big 3-0. I've already looked into going on a trip. I'm in the process of learning German. AND....I am going to run in a marathon at the end of April. Yep, you heard me. BUT...I'm only running 5K. 4 other people from work are going to run the rest. We're doing the relay portion of. I'm so excited...I can't wait for this!
I'm going to take a nap. I'll write more later. Here's what I want to discuss:
- The marathon
- Training for the marathon
- Falling off the Wagon
- Next week is a new beginning
- Cleaning up this place
- Cleaning my car
Okay, in the mean time, it's nap time.
Oh wait, one thing that annoys me today:
Stupid people at the cell phone store. That's another story too.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I ate at the Thai Restaurant today. Bad girl. A friend of mine is getting out of the Air Force and going home to Wisconsin. She leaves tomorrow so I wanted to go out with her before she left. Turns out, the guys in my office want to do lunch at a Mexican Restaurant tomorrow. GREAT. I will go, and I will eat. I just need to do some research to find out what the lesser of the evil is on the menu.
No gym time today. See above. Hopefully I'll make it on Friday. Tonight I plan on doing some Tae Bo and hopefully Yoga. I won't get to work out until 9 or so (dinner at 8 then 1 hour for food to digest). So we'll see how much I get done.
Okay, times up. I didn't type for 12 minutes but I was looking at other sites. So I better run!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I wanted to follow in K.O.'s footsteps and NOT weigh myself. Okay, yeah right, that's won't happen. However, I need to know that my working out is working. So, I measured myself today. My plan is to go back in a few weeks to see if I am making progress. Well, holy geeze, gimme a gun. I am a beached whale. I am a fat cow. I feel HUGE. The scale never F***KS with me this bad. Even when I see a 6 lbs gain, I shrug it off because I know it's impossible. But this is ridiculous. I want to die here. I want to scream. Those #'s are higher than I imagined.
Please, Please, Please someone shoot me and put me out of my misery. If I were an emotional eater, I would've eaten 3 containers of Ben and Jerry's.
Monday, January 21, 2008
I was at Hastings (our local entertainment store) and I bought MTV Yoga for $.99. It's on VHS, so what. I had rented or purchased MTV Pilates and hated it. I hated every minute of it. But I decided to give the Yoga video a try. I absolutely love it. LOVE IT!! I've been doing two Yoga Booty Ballet DVD's--Goddess Booty and Yoga Core. They're only 20 minutes long. I was looking for something more. Boy did I find it!! The 45 minutes flew by. So, I've found something new to throw in to my workout!
Dinner tonight was 2 ounces of beef, broccoli and cheese, carrots, and potatoes. If I had to guess, I'd say I had 1/2 cup of carrots and 1/2 cup of potatoes. I should start taking pics like everyone else!
White Beans and Rice
Beef Roast with Carrots and Potatoes
Sauteed Shrimp and Scallops with Lemon Linguine
Veggie Burgers on Whole Wheat Bread with Broccoli and Cheese
Teriyaki Salmon and Veggie
That's all I have planned out so far. I guess the rice and potatoes are the worst things for me. i could have less carby veggies in there and more green veggies. I know this. But this is what I bought and this is what I'm eating. It's a lot better than Big Macs!
Here's the ingredients in everything:
White Beans=Large Lima Beans, 1 packet Lipton Onion Soup Mix, and Turkey Sausage
Beef Stew=Beef, Carrots, Potatoes, Packet of Beef Stew Seasoning (sounds like my pot roast)
Beef Roast=Roast, Potatoes, Carrots, and Beef Roast Seasoning
Shrimp, Scallops, and Linguine=Shrimp, Scallops, Green Onions, Garlic, A Little Margarine, Lemon Juice, and 0 calorie Spray Butter
Veggie Burgers=Lettuce, Tomatoes, Onions, and Pickles
Teriyaki Salmon=Duh...Salmon in Jack Daniels Honey Teriyaki Sauce. Veggies are unknown
Turkey chili=Ground Turkey, Kidney Beans, Tomatoes, and Tomato Soup
Well, that's all I have. Gotta got get #3 out of the bath. She's in there with her daddy...No worries...she wont drown! Hopefully I will get my Tae Bo on soon!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I got up and checked my e-mail. I put #3 in high chair with some food. I put #1 and #2 in the shower, hung up clothes, washed 2 loads, made coffee, fed #1 and #2 AND...drum roll please....
I did 41 mins of Tae Bo and 21 minutes of YBB!!!
Now I have to eat, hang clothes, fold more, and sit in the car for 8 hours. Yippee!
Oh, I even started cooking dinner!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I am a fan of Kelly O's and Mrs. Furious' blog. If you have never read either, look at their pages--it can be found to the right.
Kelly was blogging about how we whine about things that are COMPLETELY under our control. We don't whine about the sky being blue. Instead, we whine about things we can change--don't like your job, get a new one. Don't like your bf/gf or spouse, get a new one.
Mrs. F posted a blog about how her house was a mess but she really had better things to do than to clean it. She could clean, but instead chose to spend her time with her children, doing something more meaningful.
So I sit here today whining to Kelly about how my house was a mess and I have no help from my husband and I only have like 6 free hours a day which entail cooking, trying to clean, taking care of the baby, working out, eating, checking e-mail and blogs, and taking a bath. I can't leave the baby alone in the living room because of our entry way. There's a step and tile everywhere and if she fell we would be heading to the ER. A baby gat that large is expensive. I am sure some of you are thinking "Gosh, you childs health is more important than the cost of the gate." Even if I did buy one, I couldn't use it because the only place for it to connect to is made of rigid stone so it wouldn't work. Anyway, I can't keep her in her high chair for hours. I am able to workout ebcause she's in her highchair eating and laughing at me. But after an hour she's ready to get down. Why not clean when she's in bed? Because most of my chores are on that end of the house and I don't want to wake her. Oh yeah. Did I mention that I get about 6 hours of sleep at night. He has 3 FREE hours a day, with no one around and he chooses to lay on the couch for those 3 hours. I think I told Kelly he was getting 7 or 8 hours of sleep. Actually, he goes to be anywhere from 2am to 4am. So he's getting 8 to 10 hours of sleep. Then he spends the other 3 laying around. Does anyone else see the disparity here? I had no problems taking care of things alone when he was working both day and night, but that's not the case now. So, according to Kelly--I have a choice to change this--I can get off my ass and clean or live with the mess. So, after hearing what Mrs. F has to say, I have decided that I DON'T want to spend the two hours of me time cleaning. I use 1 hour for working out and the other for checking e-mails/blogs, studying German, etc. When others decide to help me so I don't have so much to do on my own, THEN I will make time to clean. Until then, I am going to work out. God knows watching what I eat isn't working.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I came home and ate. I do this everyday. I don't think I eat enough during the day because I am starving when I get home. So I eat. Then I eat again after working out, around 8pm when Clint comes home for "lunch." Sometimes I think I am overeating although my calories are between 1200-1400 and I AM gaining weight, but that's a different story. Anyway, I came home tonight and ate for like 2 hours. I didn't eat like a cow. But I was eating quite often. (Another thing I have to get under control again--only eating if I am truly hungry). Back to the story--Clint came and left and I REALLY wanted to take a bath. I had bathed #3, lotioned her, and decided my skin was rather dry and I wanted a bath too. But did I do it? NO. Instead I checked blogs and e-mail. Then did I do it? NO. I pushed myself to workout. And I have to tell you, I think I had the best Tae Bo workout tonight. And after Tae Bo. I wanted to go to sleep. Did I? Obviously not. Did I start to write this blog? Nope. I threw in the YBB Goddess Booty DVD. About 4 minutes into it, I laid my head down on the carpet when they were doing the frog. I wanted to go to sleep. But I pushed myself. I did what Kelly said to do. I made myself continue the workout. And I am glad I did. I was pushing myself during Tae Bo. I got a cramp in my side, but like Kelly suggested, I worked through it and kept going. Yeah, so I stopped a few times. I'm still trying to get the hang of it. But I have progressed so much since I started this last week. I am very proud of myself.
I REALLY need to take pics and tape myself b/c my scale is going UP. I know muscle weighs more than fat. But did I really gain 6 lbs of muscle? I am sort of kind of dealing with my period right now (again, another story) so maybe it's water weight. Hopefully the scale will start going town soon. I can already see small changes in my body. At least I am not working out for nothing.
Well dear readers, as much as I hate to do this to you, I must go. I have to be at work for 7:30am then I have an 8 hour drive ahead of me. I need all the rest I can get. After a quick bath and some tylenol PM, my pretty little face is hitting the pillow!
Here's my menu so far for today:
Southbeach Cranberry Chicken Salad (290)
Southbeach Southwest Chicken Wrap (240)
Andes mints (100)
Turkey Meatloaf (200)
Broccoli and Cheese (65)
So far I'm at 1025. I will be having coffee I'm sure (100) and then something else for dinner after I workout. Probaly no more than 200 calories. I'm thinking Veggie Burger.
Tonight I will get in Tae Bo and YBB. I most likely won't be working out tomorrow. I have to go to Texas to get #1 and #2 and won't be home until around 9pm or so. With that said, I most likely won't be up to it. I know I won't be going to the gym because I will be leaving at noon to go get them. So I need to do extra today and even more this weekend!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I was using free weights for a few weeks, then I switched to Tae Bo Amped last week and did 3 workouts and I walked/ran on the treadmill 2X last week. I had a hectic weekend, but I am back on track today. I did a 41 minute Tae Bo workout PLUS a 25 minute Yoga Booty Ballet workout. I mentioned this last week but I will reaffirm this: I can see that my arms are slimming down. I am beginning to see definition. I had some before pics a few months ago but they must've got deleted. Every time I think about taking them, my husband isn't home. I can't figure out how to set the timer on my camera so I am out of luck. But I REALLY need to do this. I wish I could show all of you what I see. But, I am not sure you could tell. When I asked if it was possible to see this after a few workouts, Kelly told me it was absolutely possible--as much as she and I obsess over our bodies, we will notice any little change. I can see this. And I am REALLY excited!!!
Did you notice that I DID do the YBB tonight? I cut the last post short, popped it in, and got to it. Guess what, hubby didn't get home until after I finished. It's a good thing I got it over with because I have lost my steam. I still need to clean the train wreck inside my home, but I need to take a bath before I use up the hot water while running the washing machine or dishwasher. Once I get in the tub, it's all over.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
My husband I just purchased a cooktop, wall oven, and dishwasher. We were trying to get the old dishwasher out and had some issues. For starters, I have two broken nails. It HURTS when you pop two nails off. Anyway, when the previous owners put the tile down in the kitchen, they tiled in front of the dishwasher. That meant that pulling the thing straight out wasn't an option. We tried lifting on it but it wouldn't work. Our only option was to lift up on the countertop. Clint and his friend tried that while I tried to get the dishwasher out. Didn't work. So I suggested that Chris and I lift the countertop while Clint pulled the dishwasher out. I am only 5'3 and I didn't have an leverage to lift the countertop so ta-da, the lightbulb comes on in my head. I position myself on the floor and lift with my legs. I did a better job than Chris. In fact, we had to trade sides because his side needed to come up more. So Ms. Tae Bo Legs got over there and lifted it! Actually, long before they boys came in I was already lifting the countertop with my legs but as you can imagine, it is almost impossible to lay on the floor trying to lift the countertop with your legs and pull the dishwasher out with your arms. But I tried! I didn't do any workouts tonight. Here comes the excuses! I have 2 ovens, 2 dishwashers, the third row seat from my car, a microwave, a stovetop, and boxes for a stovetop, microwave, and dishwasher strewn throughout my home. Needless to say, there really isn't much room to work out. Going to my bedroom isn't an option because I will wake the baby and using the TV in #1's room isn't practical as I don't have any room to move in there. But don't worry, wrestling with that dishwasher left me breathless and I am certain my arms, legs, and back will be in pain. I am certain that I found new muscles that I never knew existed. Just wait until tomorrow!
That's it. I'm out. Only the cooktop is installed. The old oven and dishwasher is out, but the new ones aren't in their place. I'd love to be in bed in an hour but I am afraid that won't happen. Sigh. Good night!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
- New running shoes
- Always hungry
- Stupid period
- Not wanting to workout but pushing through it
I can think of more; I mainly put that down as a reminder for myself. Hopefully I'll be posing soon. Off to clean!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Well today is day 3 for Tae Bo. I tried to take a nap on the couch but my daughter didn't want that. So as she drank her juice and ate some Cheerios, I decided to force myself to work out. I am VERY thankful that tonight was only a 30 minute workout. I dragged the whole time. I commented before that I was only able to complete 3/4 of the exercises but I gave it my all. Well not tonight. I was like screw it, I am NOT doing that. I did something else instead, but trust me, that something else was me barely moving.
I am just so exhausted. On top of that, my body is sore. I know that we need to press on and workout when our bodies are sore. I don't think that was my holdup, however, I wanted to whine about it.
I had my day mapped out but it isn't happening. I will work on the house some, but my main plan for the evening is to get baby to bed, make dinner, take a bath, and go to sleep. That's it. I feel like I could sleep for days. I think I will have some coffee.
Food for today:
Turkey Sandwich (300)
LQ Potstickers (290)
Broccoli and Cheese (60)
2 hamburger patties (200)
Broccoli and Cauliflower (50)
I will probably have some Brussels Sprouts, broccoli, and cauliflower, and a small piece of salmon. Well, if I get hungry. I am going to make some coffee and that will curb my appetite some. I am hoping to finish out around 1500 calories. Normally I would freak out about this, however, I am working out quite a bit. Tomorrow is an off day for Tae Bo, so I will go hit the gym to use the treadmill and do some YBB. I think the extra calories are needed.
Is it possible to see a change in my arms already?
Monday, January 7, 2008
Back to kicking hiney's. Last night I did 40 minutes of Tae Bo. I would say I was 75% efficient. Until I get the hang of a workout, I don't give it my all. It's not that I am not trying to give it my all, it's just that I don't know what I am doing, so I am not able to do all of the workouts or I am not able to do them 100% correctly. Make sense? Anyway, I wasn't very sore at all this morning and I was a little disappointed. My calves were a little tight, but that was it. At lunch I went to the gym. I ended up running for 12 or 13 mins (7-8 mins the first time then 5 mins the last time) and walking for 17-18 mins. BTW, I DESPISE running. When I was a child, I would run everywhere. I grew up out in the country and my dad, aunt, and grandma lived on the same property, so I was running from one house to the next. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with asthma and didn't think I could run anymore. When I joined the Air Force at 18, I was forced to run for 6 weeks. Then in my 6 month tech school, I was *supposed* to run, but developed shin splints and didn't really run. So, at the grand age of 28, I have taken up running. I really want to be in a marathon. When I was 14 or so I told my step mother I wanted to be a runner in the Olympics. Great aspirations for someone that hates running huh? I don't think I hate it. I think that I developed an aversion to it and it's going to take some time getting use to. It's like having a favorite food, then eating it once and getting food poisoning. That will make you stay away from it for a long time. But you long for it so you try it again..just a little at a time. You have a fear that you won't like it anymore or it may make you sick. But lo and behold...it DOESN'T. Okay, maybe not the best analogy, but hopefully you get it the point. In case you haven't noticed, I go off on different tangents. Back to the case at hand. What did I do tonight? I did a 50 minute Tae Bo workout!! Go me! I did take a few breaks (to get the baby milk and to start dinner) but for 1/2 of those breaks I paused it and resumed. Like last night, I did 3/4 of the exercises and did it 3/4 correctly. For the things I couldn't do, I did something else in that place. I am sooooooooooo psyched!!!
Hubby will be home for lunch any minute now. Our satellite is turned off so it looks like I will have to clean to keep myself entertained. Why is my satellite off? Because I didn't pay the bill. Why? Because my husband's paychecks are weird and he gets paid via check, not direct deposit so that means I have to mail the check to the bank, which is 3 hours, or like 200 miles away. Long story but his pay period is off and we didn't have $$ going in to the bank when we normally would. So, #1-there was a missed check. #2-the $$ is en route, but isn't in the bank. So, I have about $10 in my bank account. Yeah, can't pay the satellite bill can I? Everything has been getting direct deposited until recently, so typically there would be $$ in the bank but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
it's somewhere on a mail truck. So, there you have it! Oh well. TV is overrated.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
There are some things I need to work on:
- Drink MORE water. I AM trying. Honest.
- Cut out as much sugar as possible. I used Sugar Free Syrup today and Sugar Free Spaghetti Sauce.
- Take my vitamins. I am SO horrible about this.I forget to take meds. Good thing I don't take birth control pills or else I would be pregnant all the time.
- Stop Smoking. I've actually done this. But, every now and again I will get around someone that does it and I will smoke one, then I am smoking for like a week. Then I quit, then I do it again. It's GROSS. I know. With all the cardio I plan on doing, I need my lungs to be as fully functional as possible.
- Clean my house. I do try this. But I am home alone with the baby at night and it's hard to clean while watching her. I can't leave her alone in the living room for very long because we have steps she can tumble down. I don't have $200 to buy a gate large enough to cover it. I need to try harder though to get the house in order and keep it that way. I can do it!
Well, that's all I can think of right this second. #3 is winding down. Actually she's sitting in her chair with noodles on her head.
2 Flaxseed Berry Pancakes (180) with Sugar Free Syrup (25)
1/2 c butter beans (90) and 3/4 cup rice (150)
1 small potato with tsp parm cheese and 1 tsp mayo and hot sauce (I don't know how many calories. I'd say 200 max)
1/2 c cereal and milk (I'm too lazy to check on this but lets say 200)
1 package Brussels sprouts (50)
Turkey Spaghetti with Whole Wheat Noodles (I didn't eat that much but I like to round up so..300)
Not too bad. Not too bad. Well, it's bad if I don't work out!!! But, I plan on kicking some Tae Bo Booty and Yoga Booty Booty in about an hour. The baby will be asleep, my food will be digested and I will be ready to go!
Tae Bo-6 days per week approximately 1 hour
YBB 5 days a week-Approximately 30 minutes
Treadmill Walking/Running-2-3 days a week 30-45 minutes
Arm and Ab workout-3-4 days a week or every other day
It's really hard to workout when we have to get #1 and #2. They live with their dad and he lives 4 hours away. If it's a 3 day weekend or holiday like Thanksgiving or Christmas, its easy enough to drive down there and get them then come back home, and make the trip 2 days later. But having to get them one day then take them home the next isn't worth it. We spend 8 hours in the car. By the time we get to my house, there's not much time to visit. We thought it would be cheaper to stay the weekend down there instead of spending $200 in gas; wrong. I had to spend $100 in gas, $75 for a room (a crappy one at that), and we had to pay for 4 meals for 4 people. Yeah, I spent like $250. I can't do this 2X month. Anyway, I am afraid that we're going to have to start doing this. Like I said, it's just too much to do it in one weekend. I can take us out for one meal, then I can buy frozen things to eat for dinner, breakfast, and lunch. I know it's not the greatest thing, but I can spend $20 on 3 meals versus a minimum of $45. And if I am really nifty, I can bring my can opener and we can have things from a can! And I can bring plastic ware and knives and such and we can have salads. It won't be that bad. But....if I am spending 2 days in a hotel how can I workout? Well technically, Saturday would be the only problem day. I could work out when I got home that night. I could bring a DVD player to hook up to the TV, but there's really not that much room in the room to work out. I could bring my weights for arm work outs. I could always bring my mini trampoline, but it kind of takes up a lot of room. Oh what will I do??? I'll figure something out! In the mean time, I just want to get this started today.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Yes, most people put on weight when they have a child. Yes, out bodies change..we get stretch marks, our hips spread, we get lose skin. Things do change. And as we get older, our metabolism slows down. But, you CAN LOSE WEIGHT after having a kid. I HATE, HATE, HATE people that say things like "I wouldn't be fat if I didn't have kids." YES YOU WOULD BECAUSE YOU JUST ATE 10 DONUTS. Sure, having those kids may have to led to a weight gain, but hello, you CAN lose it. I think it's sad that people accept being overweight and blame it on having kids. Pony up and admit that the kids didn't do it. You may have gained weight from being pregnant, but that had nothing to do with keeping it on. You're either comfortable with your body or you just don't give a shit enough to be thin. But having kids isn't the cause.
Okay, I am done...for today...at least with the rants.
I am part of a yahoo group called After Baby Weightloss. It's for women that are trying to lose weight after the birth of a child. When I joined, they had a 5 week Challenge in place--try to lose 5 lbs in 5 weeks. I'm not sure when I joined, but I think it was in August/September. Anyway, one person has succeeded--ONCE. The trend is that people are losing 2 lbs--IN FIVE WEEKS. Some are gaining. I am not criticizing them because I am very much one of them. Wouldn't you expect to see weight loss happening in a weight loss group? I understand some people go there for support and tips. But isn't the purpose to lose weight? I mean, it's kind of like being in a Save The World Group and discussing ways to save the world, but never going out and doing it. Anyway, in order to get this group moving, I went out and made a small purchase for the next Challenge. The person that goes above and beyond the 5 lbs wins! I hope I can motivate these ladies into actually losing weight. I have weight to lose too. But that's not the point. The point is to get this WEIGHT LOSS group to lose weight.
When I was making the announcement, I had mentioned that the holidays have passed and it's time to get back on track. This opened a door in my head and I wanted to post my thoughts on the holidays and excuses.
How many times have you heard people say "I gained weight over the holidays. I just couldn't say no to all that food." Why is it that people let the holidays consume them and they think they somehow have the liberty to pig out and gain weight (when they're trying to gain weight)? I've noticed it's the one time of year people put weight on. And the one time of year people seem to be okay with it because after all, "It's the holidays!" Why can't people be smart about it. If you want to eat apple pie, DO IT. But eat a sliver of it instead of 2 HUGE pieces. If you know you have a huge dinner to attend, reduce your calories (or points or whatever method you use) throughout the rest of the day. Say no to some of the dishes, or, if you must eat EVERYTHING, have a small amount of each. OR, as a final resort, if you MUST eat three helpings of each dish, then compensate by working out. I personally think this is stupid. There should be no reason in the world that we gorge ourselves during the holidays. It's only food. If I made the same meal once a month would you pig out? I think that people hear the word 'holidays' and immediately associate it with food then can have the excuse to over eat. Also, I know the holidays are busy times but people use this as an excuse to not work out. "Oh, I was so busy shopping." Well you know what, if you have time to watch TV, or take a nap, or get on the net, you can work out. It's all about having the desire to do so and prioritizing your schedule.
People need to STOP making excuses. If you want to eat like a horse on the holidays, whatever. But don't think that just because its "The Holidays" that you have a license to overeat. And don't bitch to others about it when you do gain weight over the holidays. Take responsibility for your actions. YOU chose to eat all that food. No one force fed you. So stop complaining. Also, don't blame holiday things for not working out. You could've got up early, or eliminated something else in order to work out. Step up to the plate, take responsibility, and say "You know what, I just didn't want to work out."
You may read this and think it's kind of like the pot calling the kettle black. But I don't see it that way. I KNOW I have excuses. I know I didn't work out, but I also know I didn't overeat. This blog serves as a lesson to others AND to myself---just stop making excuses. Shit or get off the pot. If you're not going to do something, fine, but QUIT coming up with the reasons you didn't do it.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
#2-Why do I need a vacation? I just had like a week and half off. So why the need? I just do. I spent the day in the car---from 10:45 to 8:30 taking #1 and #2 to their dads. I got home, threw some dinner together for Clint, then got on the net for a while and crashed out. Typically I end up sitting up waiting for him to get home from work. Not last night. I did wake up a few times, but went right back to sleep. I crashed out. He came in and I got in bed. I came home tonight hoping I would get the place clean, workout, cook dinner, etc. I don't see that happening. I will force myself to work out but the cleaning will wait. We have to get up at 6:00 to take the baby to the dr. for surgery (tubes in ears). I have taken the day off tomorrow so it's not like I can't take a nap. But for now, I am exhausted. I am looking SOOOOOOOOO forward to this weekend. I desperately need to clean up. Can't get past that. But I am looking forward to the down time. VERY forward to it!
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
#2-I hate it when people post things on myspace that says "Go look at my new picture. Leave me a comment." Why do you need comments? Again, are you THAT in need of attention that you have to command others to give it to you? And once again, if people aren't leaving you comments on their own accord, they probably don't give a shit.
#3-I am a member of about 12 yahoo groups, so trying to guess which group I talk about is near impossible. If you're from one of the groups and you're reading this, you're probably not part of the group or groups in question. Have you ever been part of a group where you can say things and people hardly ever respond. Yet so and so can make a post and it's like they have a fan club? I'm not even sure that's the way to put it. That way sounds like person B is more popular than person A. That's not the case. Let me try again. If you notice, some people will comment to certain people and certain people only. But for others, it's like they don't know they exist. I can understand having preferences in a group, but for fuck's sake, this isn't high school. The clique days are over. It's a message board. It's meant for open discussion. If the conversation is going to be dominated by, say, like 5 people, and they won't say shit to anyone else, why have that group? Form your own "Fab 5" group. Let's see, I can be part of a weight loss group (not the group I am talking about, just giving the best anaolgy I possibly can to get the point across) and post that I lost 50 lbs in one month, I am doing great, I found a magic super pill that gave me the best body ever, and I will get NO response. If I am lucky, I will get a "that's great." Then so and so can post that she took a shit and lost .02lbs and she gets 10 responses "Oh that's so great, what's your trick" "Way to go, I knew you could do it" "You're so close to your goal, keep up the good work" Clearly my story is more interesting, but I don't think it's about the content, I think it's about the author. And no, it's not that they don't like ME. This happens to alot of other members.
#4-Speaking of groups, have you ever joined or have been invited to a group and it's like you have NOTHING in common with these people? I am in a group with some women that have fertility issues. Some of on there don't. There's about 10 members and I would say 6 do, 4 don't. Someone can post a boo-hoo I can't have a baby (which IS sad) and everyone is all over it. But if you post about your baby, NO ONE has anything to say. I do not have fertility problems. I'm sorry I don't. I can't talk to you about that because I don't have those issues. What I can do is talk to you about the obstacles I overcome and tell you about my baby. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it's like they don't want to hear about the kid. And that's understandable. But in that forum, I have NOTHING else to talk about. NOTHING. It's not a TTC group either. It's a group of women that met from an out of control TTC group. When I was invited, I was very pregnant, and they knew this. As was a few other members. If you hate pregnant people. If you don't want to hear about kids, DON'T INVITE THOSE MEMBERS.
#5-A woman has fertility issues, then gets pregnant. Then she doesn't use birth control and ends up pregnant again. They she's all surprised and says "Well, I thought I had issues and couldn't get preggo." Hello, you have children. Clearly you CAN get preggo. I know that some people have severe issues and need IVF and stuff and have a 0 chance of getting pregnant on their own. But for those that do have a chance of it happening, why would you take that chance? A few years back my friend Gia had a 2 year old and called to tell me she was pregnant and was a little pissed. I asked "Gia, you 're poor, bc is free, why didn't you use it?" Her response: I didn't think I could have kids!!! WTF?? YOU GAVE BIRTH TO A CHILD 2 YEARS AGO. It took her over a year to conceive, but she wasn't on any meds. What does she mean she didn't think she could have kids? Yes, she had a hard time getting pregnant before, but does that mean that you will NEVER get pregnant? And for all you know, whatever condition you had before may have cured itself. I mean, if you're not trying to have a baby, why would you take tests to tell you if you're ovulating or if your man's sperm is good?
Okay, enough with my rants. Occasionally random thoughts will pop in my head. I told you these blogs were about weightloss and all the bumps in between. This is a bump.
Why can't these kids listen? Why can't they leave things along that isn't theirs. I catch #2 in there playing with baby toys. Do you know how many times we tell her to leave them alone??? It's not that they don't get it, it's just that they don't give a shit and don't feel they need to listen. This pisses me off. It's not the fact that they fucked with the bird (well, maybe a little), it's the fact that these kids have no regards for others property. None. When #1 was about 3 or 4, she brought me a toy. It needed batteries, but she thought it was broken. She handed it to me and said "Mommy, it's broke. That's okay, I'll just have Nanna buy me a new one." WTF? Are my kids really gonna be that way? They're not going to give a shit about others, only think of themselves, and think that the world is going to be handed to them in a golden platter??? I look at the big picture. It's not that they jacked with the bird. It's the fact that they were told NOT to, but they do their own thing anyway. The world isn't like that. Is it okay to go in a store and steal?? They know it's wrong but fuck it, they want it? Is it okay to treat people like shit because they feel like it?
What's the problem with kids these days???? Go ahead, tell me that their just kids, and kids don't always listen, give them a break. Bullshit. What they learn as kids is what makes them adults. There are already too many assholes in this world, we can do without 2 more.
I ate about 6 million calories yesterday. And I didn't care. Why? Because today is a brand new day, a brand new year, which is going to lead to a brand new me!!!!
I haven't had anything to eat today. My husband is making breakfast---eggs, hashbrowns, sausage, and who know what else. I will eat some, but not too much. Lunch will be blackeyed peas and cabbage. I'm from Louisiana and that's what we eat on New Year's Day!!! Btw, I am going to have "New Year's Around The Country" from now on. I am going to make what people from other regions make. Moving on, I don't know what dinner will be. Maybe some Talapia and veggies. Or Salmon and veggies. I am not quite sure. But it will be healthy!
Happy New Year everyone!