Monday, March 31, 2008
Back in 2002 when I lost weight, I was a SAHM waiting to start school. I had two small kids and I wasn't up to getting them dressed, loaded in car, and in to the gym. So, I bought a mini-trampoline. I bounced on this thing for 2 hours in the morning while watching ER (5 days a week). I lost 32 lbs in about 5 months. This was nothing strenuous. During commercials I would do crunches, change out laundry, etc. Well, tonight I pulled out my trusted trampoline (actually a new one) and watched Law & Order and The Hills for an hour. I could've went another hour. Now don't think this is a pansy workout. It's all about what you put in to it. It's relatively low impact, unless you jump like a mad woman. But, I moved my legs this way and that way and used the weights. I got a nice workout. And I got to watch some TV, something I haven't done in quite some time. I think this is something that's going to work out and contribute to my weight loss. Forget the gym. I have a gym here in my house. I may go to a Pilates class during my lunch hour but I'm going to stick to the trampoline 5 days a week here, for at least an hour. I don't know that I can fit two hours in without really messing with my schedule, but I will try. I start my new job in 2 weeks and there won't be any strolling in at 7:30 (or a few minutes after). I need to be there by about 7:20. Which means that I need to drag my butt out of bed well before 6:40. Perhaps I will start getting up at 6:00, working out half an hour, then getting ready. But really, that only gives me about 10 minutes more. Oh well, I will figure it out. But I will definitely use this thing for an hour at night.
I've drank about 70 ounces of fluid (40 ounces G2 and 30 ounces water). I drank about 80 ounces of water yesterday. Go me. It's getting easier and easier, but I have to remind myself to drink it. It's not like Oh, I'm thirsty, let me get a drink. It's like, okay, drink up!
Clint should be home soon. Mackenzie is falling asleep in her high chair. It's almost bed time. I think I'll get back to the trampoline until Clint gets homes.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
I spent part of the morning reading blogs. I tell you, some people are so inspiring. It's not so much their words or the message that they're trying to get across---it's their life, their battles, what they've overcome. I look at my life some days and think "woe is me, I need to get in shape now, now, now. OMG, I'm almost 29, if I don't get the body I want right now, I will be doomed. The older I get the worse it will be." This is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO wrong. No, I don't want to walk around the next 5 years the way I am. But I have been reading blogs...I've been reading about women getting ready for comps, losing weight and getting in shape for their health, or getting fit just because. And guess what. They're older than I am. And I think WOW, these women are BAD ASS. They're in their 30's and 40's and they are smoking hot. This can be done at any age. Again, I'm not going to sit around 5 years, but it just shows me that I don't have to live life in a hurry, this doesn't have to be done NOW. You can get hot when you're older. I don't know if this came out right or makes sense to anyone. But it has clicked in my head. And I think these women are fabulous.
I will leave you all with someone that inspires me. For the longest time I have said that I want to look like her when I am in my 40's. My ex MIL, whom I adore, laughed it off because she was an old 40+ person..Do you know those types. They dress and seem much older. This was her. I don't want to be like her. I want to be like the woman below. I don't want her EXACT physique. I just want to look as great as she does when I am her age.
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I guess you will have to stay tuned for this mystery woman. Sorry. But check back!
Here she is!
I love her arms. LOVE 'em.
Friday, March 28, 2008
(I also had about 20 ounces of coffee...that's made with water. Does that count?)
There was an auction at the CDC (daycare). I paid $12 and won 1 month Level 1 or 2 tanning at a tanning place in town. What does that mean? Well, the level one is $50 per month and the level 2 is $60. So yeah, I got a deal. There were some other things in the package too--an ugly gold purse that has about a $20 value, an Ann Klein Wallet (no idea what the value is) an yummy chocolate chip candle (about $10) and a gold Angel figurine (ugly). Let's just say that I got a bargain. I'm going to be tan this summer. My friend gave me the unlimited tanning package that I am currently using (1 month) and now the Tanfastic 1 month package. I'm in heaven!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
I drank 80 ounces of liquid--not to include coffee!!!!
I drank 4 bottles of G2 (low cal Gatorade).
I know, I know, I know I should've drank that much water. But for those that know me, I don't typically consume 64 ounces of any and all liquids combined. Seriously, it's a great day when I get down 32 ounces. So for me to consume 80 is far beyond the norm! I hope tomorrow to do 2 bottles G2, 2 bottles water. Baby steps...baby steps.
Hey, at least it wasn't 80 ounces of coke. G2 has electrolytes!
Here's my good for the day:
Broccoli, Cauliflower, and Carrots
Salad with turkey and swiss
Dill Green Beans---GROSS
Ravioli Florentine (250)
Broccoli and Carrots with Ranch
2 tsp Mozzarella and Provolone melted
Let me tell you about the BLT. I have been craving this since yesterday. I have consumed more unnecessary calories by trying to find something else to replace this craving (broccoli, carrots, and ranch). Replacing it with a healthy snack is a good option, but I ended up eating it anyway. I am a FIRM believe that you should give in to cravings--but with heavy moderation. Eat ONE bite of the cheesecake--not the whole thing. This takes a lot of will power. But back to the BLT. This think was like 110 calories. I had 2 pieces of center cut bacon--50 calories. It had less calories and fat than the turkey bacon I normally buy. I had one piece of bread (they're big pieces) and cut it in half. And I added 3 slices of tomato (no lettuce...guess it's just a BT sandwich). And now my craving is satisfied!
That's all I have tonight. Not very motivating am I? WRONG. It doesn't matter if you reach out to one person or ten thousand. If what you said made a difference in one person's life, that's an accomplishment!
UPDATE: I drank 20 ounces of water. That's 100 ounces of liquid in a day! (Actually mor elike 120 if you count the coffee).
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I cheated while eating today. Not making excuses but, I went to Wal-Mart and bought my husband some Easter candy. That was mistake #1. Never should've bought the junk. On the way home (20 mins away) I got lightheaded and thought I was going to pass out. My blood sugar obviously dropped. So what do I do? Pass out and wreck the car and kill me and the baby...or eat some gummy bunnies? I opted for the latter. BUT...I didn't eat one (at 90 calories) I ate two. I didn't feel any better 5 minutes after eating the first, so I ate another. Bad girl. On a plus side, I made some cocoa later on and I took a few sips and didn't drink anymore. Didn't need the extra calories.
Here's my food for the day:
- Whole grain oatmeal
- 1 baked potato with broccoli and cheese
- 1/2 cup cottage cheese and 1/2 cup fruit
- 2 gummy bunnies packs
- Imitation Lobster (90 calories)
- 1 piece of garlic toast (160---bad Sherry) with 2tsp mozzarella and provolone (bad Sherry)
- 1 cup whole wheat pasta
- 1/2 cup ground turkey and spaghetti sauce
That's it for me. Could've done better.
LBWO is tonight. Oh joy.
I gotta run. Gotta feed the kid. I would like to feed her to the ferret. But I can't do that. Shucks.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Now to more important things. My eating has improved today. No Starbucks thank you very much. It was hard, but I refrained. Here's what I ate today:
- Whole grain oatmeal
- Salad with 2 tsp ranch (lettuce, mushrooms, green olives, broccoli, tomatoes, cucumber, spinach, and 1 tsp bacon)
- 1 packet Sweet and Sour Tuna
- 1/2 cup Tuna Salad
- 1/2 cup Chili
- 1 packet Brussels Sprouts
- 2 cups raw shredded cabbage with rice wine vinegar
- 1/2 cup green beans with dill and red pepper flakes
- 1/2 cup asparagus with garlic salt and spray butter
- 2 turkey burgers minus the bun (they were small...should've weighed them)
That's it! It looks like a lot when written down, although it didn't seem like a lot. I feel a little nauseated right now. Not sure what that's about. Reminds me of when I was preggo and suffered from "morning sickness" for like 2 or 3 days. I ensure you that's not what's wrong with me. It's just what it feels like. I think I am going to get some sleep and hope I feel better. I hate throwing up. HATE it. Good night.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
By the time Hanna was 6 months, I was back to where I needed to be. With Hailey, I was there by the time she was about 10 months old. By the time she was 1, I had by far exceeded it and was sitting at 116.
Not this time. If I want to create an excuse, I could tell you all that I weighed less when I got preggo with #3 than I was with #1 and #2. And I am actually right around that weight now. Does that count? NO. Because I had lost another 10 lbs by the time #2 was this age. So I am definitely behind.
The damage is done. I've not met my goals. Not the goal to be at my PP weight before my child is 1. Now I need to get there before the kid is two. HEHEHEHEHE. If I am STILL at this weight in December, PLEASE shoot me.
This weekend has flown by so fast. I spent my day in town yesterday taking the dog to get shots and searching for Guitar Hero. I left at noon and returned around 3:00. I spent the rest of the time entertaining guests until 11pm. I do enjoy having people over. Fun times. And it makes time fly. But then I am left wondering...where did all the time go? I get nothing accomplished..no laundry, no dishes, no weights. YEP. I am found that I am left with this weekend after weekend. It's not that I am too busy entertaining them that I don't have the time to workout. It's just that they're invading my workout space and I don't want to do this in front of all of them. And if I went to another room, they would pop in time after time to see what I was doing. No thank you. I think I need to set my free day as Saturday.
Speaking of free days. I may have a free day from working out, but I am not going to have a free day with food. I am going to press on and continue eating as I have planned.
Happy Easter everyone!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
My day has officially been messed up, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. Clint and I were supposed to go to Starbucks, then take the puppy to the Animal Shelter to get the remaining shots that she needs. Well, Clint's going to go to work. He missed work on Monday so basically he's making up for it today so that we're not flat broke when his check comes in! Well, that's not necessarily the case, but when you don't have sick time or vacation time and you take the day off and lose pay, it's noticeable. According to him, he's going to be working past two, so he can't go. GREAT. I have to figure out how to get the baby and the dog in the clinic. No biggie, I can figure it out. (Get dog out, put her on leash, get baby out..duh!)
I made some fantastic omelets this morning. That's my new favorite thing to cook. LOVE 'em. When I get home I am going to spend the day cooking a few meals. I much rather do this than to have to come home at night and worry about cooking. What's on the menu this week?
- Adobe rubbed pork tenderloin and pico de gallo
- Stuffed Anaheim Peppers (ground turkey and brown rice)
- Turkey burgers (no bun) with asparagus and some other veggie
- Talapia and green beans (and some other veggie)
- Cabbage, Potatoes, and Turkey Sausage
I don't know what's planned for the rest of the week. What I have listed will get me through Wednesday night. And to be honest, that will last beyond Wednesday because we usually have a lot leftover. We finally ate the Split Pea Soup with Roast Turkey Breast last night; it was cooked Sunday. It was VERY good. And there's STILL more left. Lunch today! AND....I STILL have white chicken chili left. Clint and I ate this 2 times and his friend ate it once with us. We won't be eating this today, that's for sure! I feel like I make the same things over and over (veggie chili, chili, veggie soup, spaghetti, turkey meatloaf) so I am trying to make new things. I've pretty much made everything I desire from the Eat Clean Diet Cookbook. I want to make Quinoa dishes, but I can't get Quinoa in town. So that will have to wait. Beyond that, I have flipped through the book over and over again, but nothing jumps out at me. I prefer the recipes in the book over the cookbook. I'm hoping to see more recipes on the website.
BTW, I went to the Starbuck's website. I'm sage with a Light Honey Frappuccino--150 calories. MUCH better than the 340 calories I would consume if there was whipped cream on top! Guess my husband is missing out!
Later today I will be working my arms. YIPPEE. That's my favorite thing to do!
Have a great Saturday everyone!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I haven't been to the gym the past two weeks. Isn't it amazing how quickly you can fall off the wagon. One missed session leads to another and another. I can't even begin to tell you why I skipped a day, then the next, then the next. Doesn't matter. An excuse is an excuse. Typically I would say piss on in and abandon my BFL efforts. But I won't. I am not going to restart the clock. I'm just going to finish my session. I'm still on a schedule here---finish BFL, hire a trainer (hopefully), then go see a surgeon! That's my goals anyway. I know my life and my luck and I am pretty sure my plans will be derailed some how. If that's the case, fine then. I'll move on to plan B. There's always a plan B. What is it you ask? I'll just start saving my VA $$ and have it done for my 30th b-day. So it will be 8-9 months after my original time frame. Oh well. More time to look great!
I'm off. I have to get the groceries from the car and take a bath. Good times!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I am addicted to Starbuck's. I only go because I have a giftcard. I just acquired two more giftcards. And I have been a bad girl. I had a Caramel Macciato....twice. And today I had an Iced Honey Latte. I don't even want to know how many calories are in this thing.
That's all I have. I shall have something more inspiring and interesting tomorrow. I'm off to read blogs...oh, how I miss thee!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
This is Havana Salad--brown rice, black beans, avocado, tomatoes. Pretty Good. I'm all about taste, not presentation!
Family Photo Time. I realized my arms look fat. ICK. And you can't see Clint's face. And Mackenzie took a tumble at daycare, hence the scratch on head.
I've never tried this. It doesn't look very appealing but it's White Chicken Chili. I put Anaheim and Jalepeno Peppers in it so I will try it later this week. I cooked several meals today and this is one.
This is my favorite--Leek and Potato Soup. I need to put it in a food processor but I burned myself pretty badly last time so I am going to let this wait until just before we eat it.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I'm going to head in to the kitchen in a moment to make Adobe Rubbed Pork Tenderloin and Pico. Yum. I'll post pics. I still need to post the pics from the meals I made last week.
I had an epiphany a few moments ago. I was looking at various blogs and I came across one a few days ago then saw it again today and thought "I want her arms." Do any of you find yourself looking at others wanting this body part or that? After admiring her arms, I thought, " I may want her arms, but I bet my arms are going to look like HERS." The later had nice arms too, but hers were bigger. I want smaller, cut arms. Then I made another observation: You know, A is a smaller person than B. I don't mean smaller weight wise, I mean that A has a more petite build. Since I am on the petite size, perhaps I could have A's arms. Then this is what hit me: It's really up to our genes. I may have arms that looks like A's, B's, or C's. And you know what, that would be okay. Why? Because God gave me my build. I need to embrace what I have. If I have those smaller cut arms, GREAT. If I have bigger biceps, Woo-Hoo. It really doesn't matter. I have the body I have. I will get the definition that I am meant to have. This is a VERY helpful thing to realize. Why you ask? Because I won't be discouraged in 6 months when I don't have A's arms. I won't be discouraged in 6 years when I STILL don't have A's arms. Have you ever found yourself working and working and working and working and wondering "Why the heck can't I look like HER? I've been working my bum off and I still can't get those abs (or arms, or legs, or whatever.)" Well don't get discouraged. You may not look like that. You may not have that physique. But you do your best and you love YOUR body!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
I've ALWAYS had boobs. Always. I was in 6th grade and had 36D/34DD's. My boobs got bigger with pregnancy and breastfeeding then went back down to size. I've gained weight and lost weight but always ended up with my D's. Well, when I lost weight in 2004/2005, my boos shrunk. I was wearing a 26C/34D. Gasp. I got pregnant with #3 and they came back to life. But they seem smaller than they were. I can't fit in my 34D bras, but the 36D's don't seem right. Also, I have some major sagging happening. I can't say my boobs would ever poke your eyes out, but they weren't *this* bad.
Now let's talk tummy. This is where I store my fat. After gaining 50+ lbs with #1, I was left with stretch marks, loose skin, and some fat. It got a little worse with #2, but you really couldn't get much worse. UNLESS....your appendix ruptures and the dr. leaves a 4 inch CROOKED scar vertically down your tummy. This makes things worse. I had a consult with a plastic surgeon in 2005 but decided not to get it done because I was about to be out on my own (divorced) and needed to pay bills over the tummy tuck. That must've been meant to be b/c later I got preggo with #2 and my appendix ruptured so that would've messed up the belly.
I'm expecting some $$ later this year. Clint and I discussed it and he wants me to go ahead and get the boob job and tummy tuck. The only way for me to get rid of the skin and fat is a tummy tuck. Sure, I can shrink the fat cells, but I will still have quite a bit of fat and the loose skin. A tummy tuck will eliminate the vertical scar. Sure, I will have a bigger horizontal scar, but that can be hidden. I can actually wear a bikini!!! And I want my boobs A-perky and B-Bigger. I was really surprised that he suggested it. HE says he's fine with the way I look and he previously thought it was a waste of money. But he sees how hard I am working and how much I want to better myself, so now he fully supports it.
I am shooting for August/September time frame. What I am going to dos is to finish my BFL 12 week challenge. That will be over the end of May. Then I am going to hire a trainer for 3 months to get me in the best condition I can be in. If I won the lottery today, there is no way I would go have it done today. NO WAY. I still have 15 lbs to lose. I'm not going to blow $$ like that. I am going to get all the weight off and do as much as I can to have my body looking good. The surgery will be the finishing touches. I'm so excited. This makes me want to work 2X as hard to make sure my goals are met.
There's always the chance that this won't happen in August/Sept. I should know something by then. If things don't go my way and I find out before then, I'm not going to abandon my efforts and give up. I'm going to press on and keep going. Why? Because the tummy tuck/boob job is going to happen within this next year. One way or another! And if it does go the way I am hoping for and I find out before August, I am still going to wait until then. Again, I want to give myself enough time to get my body where it needs to be.
That's all I have. I'm stoked about this. I don't think I could be any happier. I'm glad I have something to look forward to. Working hard has a purpose for me now. Sure, the purpose before was to have a nice body, but I would never have the body I want without the surgery. What good is working hard, getting ready for the summer, if you can't truly wear a bikini?
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
With that said, I don't have much to talk about. I sit at work pondering things and thinking about "rants" but by the time I get around to posting, the thoughts have left my mind. I want to apologize to all of you for having such boring posts these last few days. I don't think I will snap out of the haze in a few days--it's more likely to take weeks to months, however, I promise I will have something more noteworthy to write about.
I do have some puppy news. The puppy is mine! My persistence paid off and they gave me Tootsie! (The Weenie Dog, not the Chihuahua). I went up at lunch again and talked to the lady--explaining that I wasn't a dog stalker. A friend had told me that she's believes one should visit a pet shop/animal shelter, or wherever several times to get to know the animal before you bring it home in order to assure it's right for you. The lady said this was the first time she got time to sit down to start checking references. Anyway, she took me back to see Tootsie and I think she saw how much I loved this puppy. I tried to pet the Chihuahua but he's nuttier than a fruitcake. It was quite obvious that Tootsie and I had a bond. I did ask her how long they try to contact references before they gave up and she said there's no set limit, it's kind of a personal decision, but they give it about a week. Around 2:00pm, I got the call that she was mine! I was so excited. I asked my boss if they had called him to check me out and he said NO! I really think this woman made a personal decision to let me have the puppy. I had been up there several times this week to see her. I doubt the other people ever came back. I hope she knows that we will offer her a great home. Anyway, at 3:30 I had a missed call. It was them. I thought they were going to tell me they made a mistake and called the wrong people. Nope. They just wanted to tell me I couldn't get her until the 17th because they had a 10 day quarantine period and it wouldn't be over until Monday. I'm pretty excited about this! My husband won't be. If he reads my blog I guess he'll know. But Tootsie is a surprise for him and the girls! BTW, her name will NOT be Tootsie after I get her. My SIL had a pet named Tootsie. I am leaning towards Lexie, but I really want to get to know her before I commit. She's only 8 weeks old, she's only had the name Tootsie since last Friday, so it's not like she knows it.
Moving on to me. I wanted a burger from Whatburger SOOOOOOOOOOOOO badly today. I wanted one yesterday too. But both days I refrained. I fought the urge and didn't cave in. GO me!
Tomorrow is my upper body workout. I am pretty excited about that. I LOVE working my arms, especially my biceps. I can look at my arms and see a difference. I'm going to have some pretty big guns when this is over. I don't really want big arms. I want detailed arms, but not "big" arms. But I think my physique is made that way. I've learned to embrace the body I have. I can do things to improve it, but I can't change my genes. My tummy is my trouble spot and I will have a tummy tuck one day to correct that. But it's not like I'm going to have them cut out some of the muscle in my arm because I think it's an inch too big. That's silly. I do have nice legs btw. My upper inner thigh has some fat on it, but besides that, overall, they're pretty good! Of course there's always room for improvement. I guess we have to have a trade off somewhere...I got nice legs, bad tummy. I could have a nice flat stomach and big old ugly, flabby, thunder thighs. I'm really not sure what's worse. Hmmmmmm......
Well, that's it for my boring life. Mackenzie's doctor wants her to use an inhaler. Yeah, she's 15 months. That's NOT going to happen. Trust me, I know. I tried 6 different times tonight. The dr. tried to give me a prescription for a medium mask but I told her I had one. Nope. I have a small. So I am going to get the medium to see if that works better. I doubt it will. Regardless of the mask size, she's still going to fight me. At least with a bigger mask her nose/mouth will be covered when she's fighting. The small one doesn't cover either when she's fighting me. Why am I telling you this? I'm not sure. Oh! I am going to hit the inhaler myself then go to bed! Good night everyone.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Okay, I know that had NOTHING to do with losing weight/getting fit. It does kind of tie in to it....I have NO patience with things. NONE. When I want something, I want it NOW. I want the Weenie Dog NOW. I want to be thin NOW. But you know what, I guess it's something that's going to take a little time. If I do end up with the puppy, I can happily right back and say hey, look, I was persistent and I didn't give up and I got what I wanted. Then I can tie that in to my goals--hey I am persistent, I didn't give up, and look, I got the body I wanted. If I don't get the dog I guess I can say hey, sometimes we fail at things but we have to keep going....
I took another long nap today. So did the baby. She's in her bed fussing (after eating and having a bath). I am in here about to scream. I'm going to take a bath then hit the bed...assuming she stops whining.
I managed to drink about 32 ounces of water today. That's progress I tell you. I doubled my intake from yesterday. Maybe I can double today's intake tomorrow and make it to 64 ounces!
Monday, March 10, 2008
Does anyone else suffer from extreme fatigue when the time changes? Maybe it's psychological and I THINK it affects me, therefore I do experience physical symptoms, but it's all in my head. Who knows. The worst year was 2002. I *was* suffering from depression so maybe that had something to do with it. I am not depressed this year, nor have I need for the last few years, but everytime the time changes in the spring, I am wiped out.
I didn't workout today. I went to the Animal Shelter to look at puppies, went to JCP to buy the baby some outfits, paid my cell bill, then went back to work. I had the intention of going after work but got into a lengthy conversation with a co-worker. Deep down though, I knew I wouldn't make it this afternoon. My true intention was to do cardio AND LBWO tomorrow. This may be a BFL no-no, but I am doing it anyway. I'll do the cardio at the gym and the LBWO at home. I don't want to do the LBWO at home, but I will as I only have 1 hour to get to the gym, change, workout, change, get to work. There's not enough time to do both cardio and LB.
I need to drink more water. I drank about 16 ounces today. Seriously. I think I am part camel. I've said that many times. I had about 16 ounces of coffee today and that was it. I will maybe get in 8 ounces of water before bed but that's it. My goal for the rest of the week is to get down 64 ounces. I'm going to make myself drink 16 ounces before I allow myself to eat. I'll hold the food hostage!!! I can't wait to see how this affects me weight. Does water really help you lose weight?
I'm off to get ready for bed. I can't take this anymore.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
I feel like CRAP. I took 2 sinus caplets and after I finished my last blog I thought I was going to pass out. I tried to take a nap but that didn't work. I don't know if it's the sinus medicine or that coupled with the coffee I had earlier, but it feels like my heart is going to pop out of my chest. I took Metabolife and Hydroxycut back in the day and THIS is why I stopped. I HATE this feeling. The only difference between this and the diet pills is that with the diet pills I have a "warm" feeling--like hot flashes. With this, I feel fine, minus the jumpiness and jitteryness. I don't like this feeling whatsoever. I wish it would wear off. I've been like this for about 3 hours now. Something's gotta give!
I'll get my food photos up soon. I haven't cooked yet, but I will!
Just so all of you know, I was being facetious about coming up with excuses. We all make them. Whether something didn't go our way and we had a VALID reason to eat badly, skip working out, or whatnot, OR we look for something, anything, to justify making bad decisions or not losing weight, we ALL have excuses. I think that people "make excuses" in order to make themselves feel better. I know I do. When I skip a workout it seems so much "better" to let you know that I was sick or the baby was fussing or whatever. It's like you would approve of it since I had a good reason versus just not wanting to work out. It seems so much more dignified than saying "Hey, piss on it, I didn't want to work out." I've noticed in the blog world and on message boards that people always try to justify why they weren't able to lose weight or why they ate a cheesecake the day before. I don't know if they're trying to make themselves feel better or if they're looking for approval from others. I think everyone wants to be liked and everyone wants others to approve of their decisions in some way shape or form. Do we really need to come up with 20 reasons why we didn't lose weight last week? The fact is, that regardless of having 20 reasons or having none, it didn't happen. Okay. Press on. So you ate a chocolate cake because you're dog died? Is the fact that your dog died going to change the fact that you ate a whole cake? Are we going to feel sympathy for you and tell you it's okay that you did it because you had a reason? Or are you telling us this because having a reasons makes YOU feel better? That was a rhetorical question. No need to answer! I ponder things like this all the time. To be honest, it really doesn't matter!
My head is killing me. I think my nose is going to blow up. I took some sinus medicine but it's not doing anything. I am too lazy to hop in the car and spend 20 minutes driving to the store for some different medicine. I will just suck it up. After this I have an upper body workout to complete. I could use the fact that I am sick as an excuse to skip it. But you know what, regardless of working out or not, my head is still going to feel like it's going to explode. Will lifting weights make it worse? I don't know. I hope not. If I were running to the bathroom every 5 mins with my head over the toilet, I could understand not working out. But in my current situation, I don't think I am going to feel any worse. My head feels like it's in a vice grip anyway.
I have some pics to post of some meals I made. I am going back in the kitchen in a bit to cook some more, so I will take pics then and post them all at once. I cooked Chicken, Asparagus, and Red Potatoes and Havana Salad. Today I will be cooking Turkey Breast and Mushroom Stew and Black Eyed Pea Salad. I MAY make a Adobe Rubbed Pork Tenderloin. Scratch that. My tomatoes were looking bad so I trashed them and I need them for the Pico de Gallo. I guess I will make that Tuesday.
I hope everyone has a fantastic Sunday. And I hope you set your clocks. Had my MIL not mentioned it to Clint, I wouldn't have known. Typically they remind us at work to change the clocks. Or I see something in the news about it. But I haven't. I had to go online to verify because I didn't believe her since I hadn't heard anything. I told me husband "The time changes on March 9. She's wrong." He had to inform me that it IS March 9. Geeze time flies!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Reasons the scale may not show a loss tomorrow:
- It's my time of the month
- I've drank NO water today
- I had two free days this week with BFL. Not two free eating days, but two free non-workout days (Will explain later)
- I had 3 days of non-cardio workout. I must be gaining muscle and that weighs more than fat
- I had coffee from Starbucks and that causes dehydration so that's why I'm fat
- The artificial sweetener in the coffee I am about to drink kept the weight on
- I had too much protein this week
- The Fiber One Cereal made me bloated
- My boobs are fuller so that added weight
- My scale must've moved over an inch giving me a different reading
- I didn't weigh at the EXACT same time as last week so I am still fat
- The added Crystal Light in my water is making me retain water
- The Protein Powder is making me fat
Okay, this is hurting my brain as I am having a hard time coming up for reasons. Do any of you have any great excuses I can add to my list of why I might not have lost weight this week?
Thursday, March 6, 2008
I will admit that I was dreading going to the gym. I told myself that I could go after work before I got the baby. But I knew that I would find some excuse then, so I pushed myself and went. Good decision.
On a different note, it looks like I may have a new job by the end of March. I will be a Commander's Secretary. I had interviewed with him back in December and he told me he liked me, I was well qualified, he thought I would rock, but he wanted to keep his secretary. The problem is, I have Veteran's Preference, she doesn't, so he has to hire me. Um...that makes me feel GREAT. Anyway, he was pretty much forced to hire me because of the system. I feel bad for the girl he has to let go and I feel kind of shitty that he didn't really want me, but I have to suck it up and play the system. For those that don't know, I am only a temporary employee. This is a permanent position that pays more. Basically it equates to job security plus more $$. As a political science major, I should know how to play the game, but it does suck. I actually cried over this. I LOVE my job and I love the people I work with. But it could be over as early as May. I was extended through October, but I haven't seen the paperwork. Anyway, I can't stay where I am because technically my office has a civilian but she is matrixed out elsewhere. Although they won't bring her back to work in their section, I can't stay there forever. So....I can leave gainfully employed or I can leave unemployed. I choose the former. With ALL of this said, as a permanent employee, I get 3 hours of gym time a week. As it is now, I have to go during lunch or after work. I don't know how well it will work out being a commander's secretary (something I loathe btw) and trying to get out of the office 3 days a week. Regardless, I will continue to go to the gym during my lunch hour. Looks like I will have to get up earlier and have breakfast at home and somehow fit in gym time PLUS lunch in 1 hour. But I will survive!
Alright, enough rambling. I am getting emotional again. I KNOW this is best for me and for my family. But it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to go. I am a Taurus and regardless of being spontaneous, we really don't like change.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
My legs might be a little sore tomorrow. I could've done alot better tonight. I have to admit that I only put about 75% effort into my squats and lunges. I tried some things on the bowflex but had some difficulty; I think my legs are too short. I am going to see what I can do at the gym for my next LBWO. But for the record, in spite of my not so great attempt at lunges and squats, I want to vomit after that session so I must've done something right!
I'm off to bed. Good night. Sweet dreams of the perfect body for you!
I'm off to cook. I will try to post something more interesting later!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
I’ve pretty much committed myself to BFL, at least for the moment. Last night I did my upper body workout at 10:00. I didn’t want to. I really didn’t want to. I wanted to go to bed instead. It could wait until tomorrow right? WRONG. No, it couldn’t wait until tomorrow. Or the next day. Or the next. If I didn’t get up then and do it, I wouldn’t. So, I did. I was using my 5 lbs weights and I thought it was pretty pathetic at first. I had clearly gotten use to those and needed to use heavier weights. WRONG. After a couple of sets, my arms were SOOOOOOOOOOO tired. By the third set, it was taking all I had to get out the last few reps. EEEKKKKKK…..I felt GREAT afterwards. G-R-E-A-T.
So here comes today. It’s cardio day. I can tolerate 20 minutes right? Well I really don’t want to go to the gym. But I don’t have anything cardio related at home besides the mini trampoline. Plus, it would be easier to monitor my time on a piece of equipment at the gym. So I went and got on a treadmill. I set my 5 at 3.5, 6 at 4.0, 7 at 4.5, 8 at 5.0, 9 at 5.5, and my 10 at 6.0 mph. I was very tired each time by the time I got to my 9. When I was down to the last two minutes and I had to crank it up to 6mph, I wanted to scream. My legs were tired. I was tired. But I did it. And for that entire minute I thought I was going to cry. I thought I was going to burst out crying in front of 20 people. I was pushing myself, telling myself to keep going, envisioning thin thighs. All 60 seconds sucked more than anything. I was beyond a 10. I think I was at a 20. For some people, running 6mph might not be that big of a deal. But to me, today, it was. So, I made it through that one minute and let me tell you, the results of pushing yourself is SOOOOOOOOOOO rewarding. I am not sure if I was fueled from an endorphin high or if I was just thrilled that I had a goal for the day and succeeded.
You can do anything when you put your mind to it. ANYTHING. Sometimes you have to push yourself, even if it's to the point of wanting to cry because you don't think you can do it. But if you have faith in yourself and your abilities, the world is yours! (Or at least a nice body is yours!!)
I'm off to take a bath! Have a fanfreakingtastic night!
Monday, March 3, 2008
Can I do other things--like Pilates and Yoga, in addition to the prescribed cardio and upper/lower body workouts? Some schools of thought think more workouts in addition to what is suggested will only harm your progress while others think the more you do the better. Ex: There's a 6 week plan with my bowflex and the creator swears that this is ALL you need to do and if you do anything other than this, it will ruin your results.
Here's the deal. I want to try BFL for 12 weeks. I need to find something and stick to it. I don't want to sign up for WW, or do Atkins, or anything rigid. I want a program that isn't too different from what I am doing, isn't very radical, and incorporates both eating and working out. As of right now, I think BFL suits me best. I am very anti "following a set plan" but right now I feel like I need some structure and guidance. Basically, I don't want to count points (WW) or eat a certain number of blocks (The Zone) or eat meals delivered to me (NutriSystem) or eat meat 24/7 (Atkins). And to be honest, I am not a fan of looking at my watch saying "Oh, it's time to eat." I would prefer to eat when and only when I am hungry. But, right now, I will be flexible as I really want to set a goal and achieve it. And like I said, BFL seems right.
Here's my holdup: I want to be able to continue doing Yoga and/or Pilates a few days a week. And if I want to throw in my Tae Bo Amped DVD, I can without it sabotaging my progress. Can I do this in addition to the routine set out in the BFL book? Or do I have to stick to those guidelines and do nothing more?
You guys rock. Thanks in advance for any advice you can give me on this matter!
Her: Can I help you?
Me: Yes, do you have any EAS products?
Her: Um.....I don't know. I think I've heard that name before.
Me: (Silence, just watching her stand there with a deer in the headlight look glued to her face)
Me: Fine, I will just find it myself
Stupid b***h. WTF are they paying you for? You work in GNC and you think you've heard that name before???? And no, don't get off your ass and help me look for it. I mean, here I am carrying a 26+ squirming baby. You just sit there and look dumb because I don't know what else they're paying you for.
Needless to say, I didn't find what I was looking for. YES, there were EAS products, but not what I wanted. Oh well.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
I made the most perfect omelet for breakfast. I put in 1/2 slice of provolone cheese and I wasn't really impressed. But overall, it was good!
I will post more later about my new plan. I am committing myself to a twelve week plan. I asked Katie Feldmom a question regarding it and hopefully I will hear from her. If not, I will ask all of you. I need to stick to something. I need to focus on something and have a goal to reach. We are NOT running in the OKC Memorial Marathon. I am really bummed about it. I told all those guys to give me the $$ so we could sign up but they kept putting it off and putting it off. Now we would have to pay $5 more per person, which is no big deal. But I still only have payment from 1 person and I am tired of begging the other 3. Plus, one teammate thinks his FIL is coming to town that weekend so I said piss on it. I'm tired of trying to motivate people. None of them started training and with 2 months left, I don't think they would succeed. That's another reason I wanted to get the entry fee paid early--so they WOULD start to train because we were COMMITTED to it. But no, they couldn't get to an ATM and kept putting it off to to tomorrow X2. Oh well. I can not control others; I can only control myself.