And it got me thinking

I was sitting here thinking about what I really wanted to do with my weightloss/fitness routine. Do I want to try BFL? Do I want to hire someone? Do I want to do my own thing? Then it hit me: I don't know what I want. I decided to give my brain a rest and moved on to blogs. I read a post from Hayley and it hit the nail on the head. she too was talking about she didn't know what her goals were. Granted, I wasn't really thinking about goals, but more like the avenues to take to get to my goals, but it brought up a bigger issue for me: I don't know what my goals are either. If you look at my sidebar, you will see a list of goals. On that you will see that I want to get to 115 lbs. You will even read that in my "About Me" section. But this was pre-weights. I wanted to be 115 lbs because that was my weight before I had Mackenzie (#3). I loved that number. I felt thin. But the truth is that I still had fat and flab on me. I don't want to be like that again. I want a VERY toned body, hence, my using weights. I think the main reason I have 115 stuck in my head is because that was what I weighed before and that weight allowed me to wear the clothes in my closet. I have sizes 2-7 in there. Granted, I can wear some 5's now, but I am not nearly as thin as I was. One of my goals is to be able to wear those clothes again. I guess the # really isn't that important. But it makes me wonder....Can I still weigh 115 and have a toned body without looking like I am too thin? If I had a really toned, tight body that could fit in my clothes again, how much would I weigh...120?125?130? Muscle weighs more than fat so surely I would weigh more.

So that's my goal for this weekend....I need to figure out what I want to do (amongst other things). There's SO much I want to do (and that includes things not fitness/food related). It makes my head spin thinking about it. I need to learn to prioritize and make time for everything I need. It's easier said than done of course. I can schedule 5-6 for blog time, then 6-7 workout time, then 7-8 cooking and laundry time, then 8-9 cleaning kitchen and bath time, etc. but it doesn't work like that because I have a baby that doesn't like my schedule. It would be so easy if I could schedule 5-6 Mackenzie time, but she really needs MUCH more of my attention that that. Sigh. I still need to prioritize things!

S-H-E-R-R-Y

What Sherry Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I saw this on several others blogs and thought it would be fun. I think this is fairly accurate, although I do love to rock the boat. If you know me, I am not afraid to right the wrongs, speak my mind, and fight for what's right....and usually that means rocking the boat!

I don't know how well I will do with a business because I only half way tried, but I did really well with the academia portion.

This was pretty cool.

Addictions

I am so addicted to reading blogs. Kelly O. would send me links to blogs to read but I never really paid attention to them. I don't like to watch videos on the net and for some reason I didn't want to read blogs. One day I read Mrs. Furious' blog and I was hooked. Because of her, I started my own. The rest is history. I really enjoy coming home from work and spending (too much) time in front of the computer reading all my favorites. I especially enjoy checking out someone's page then going to others pages from their pages. I have read so many interesting blogs these past few weeks. The problem with that is that I click on one person's then another's then another's then it's time for me to cook dinner and I never add those blogs to my page. Sometimes it takes me a while to get back to the blogs I like but don't have saved. Anyway, with all of that said, I am addicted to reading blogs.

What else am I addicted to? I was addicted to weighing myself. I would do it several times a day. I would even get up at night to go to the bathroom and hop on. Why? I don't know. One day the scale royally pissed me off and I followed the lead of Kelly O. and banished the scale. Okay, well, I didn't exactly do that. I still weight myself every few days but I don't put much faith in it. I broke that addiction and I it was rather easy.

What's next? Smoking? Ah. Smoking. I am a non-smoker. But I wasn't a few months ago. I was surrounded by people that smoked so I did too. Then one day I stopped. Cold turkey. I just stopped. Was it east? Kind of. I had to stay away from the smokers. I didn't flay out avoid them--it just kind of happened. Some friends that smoke came over (and we went to their house) and I told them I had quit. Was I tempted? Sure. Did I do it? No. Today I went outside to ask someone a question and he and female were smoking. It was gross. It smelled gross. Everytime I smell it I want to vomit. for you smokers that are reading my blog, I hope I am not offending you by saying that I don't like it. I just find it funny that it didn't bother me when I was doing it; I didn't find it gross. Now the smell gags me.

I am addicted to spending money. Seriously. I don't think a day goes by where I don't buy SOMETHING. Whether it's something from the grocery store, something from a store, or gas, I am spending money. I frown upon buying gas and groceries, but I really think that my need to spend money is an addiction. Sometimes I will go to dollar tree and spend like $8 on useless things or things I don't need. Why? Because I just feel the urge. I never really make expensive purchases. I just feel like I need to buy something.

I was addicted to ice and jalepenos this last pregnancy. I just HAD to have them. It felt the same as my need to HAVE to spend money. I ended up being anemic so that explained the ice cravings. To this day I can't explain the jalepenos. And it wasn't just cravings like "Oh, I am craving ice, I think I'll have some." It was as if I were going to kill someone if I didn't get ice or jalepenos. I can imagine that's what drug users feel like when they need a fix. I was jonsing for jalepenos!

Okay with ALL of this said, I am sad to announce that I will not be reading all blogs tonight. My husband is home so I need to spend quality time with him. He's bathing the baby while I am typing this. He was in the kitchen the whole time I made dinner too. Speaking of dinner, I made a black-eyed pea and brown rice "salad" and OMG it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO filling. I ate about 1 cup of this and I am stuffed. Basically it consists of 4c brown rice, 3c black-eyed peas, celery, 1 butternut squash, onion, pepper, garlic, and hot sauce. It called for a red bell pepper but I was too lazy to chop it. It was pretty good. It was the first time I had used butternut squash. I have a ton of this stuff left too. Honestly, Clint and I could eat on this for 3 more days. Maybe 4 or 5. Seriously.

Work getting you down?

Does anyone else have issues with work (or even friends or family) jacking with your eating or workout routine? I didn't make it to the gym on Monday for whatever reason. I forgot to bring food from home so my co-worker and I went to the club to eat. I had salad and 1/2 cup soup. Tuesday rolls around and no gym. This time we were having a going away pot-luck for someone. I went to the store and bought hummus, veggies, and salad for the event. What did I eat? That PLUS some meatballs (2) and cocktail sausages (3) and some Italian casserole (about 1/4 cup) and 1/4 cup of a Mexican casserole AND a few small shrimp and cocktail sauce. Then today I was "forced" into an office pizza party. I had to get the pizza then eat it, so there was no gym time. Then we have some "training" going on tomorrow on base, so there will be no gym time. Geeze......Does stuff like this ever happen to anyone???

I guess the easy answer would be to skip the going way or bring my own food or gain more self control to only eat the veggies or to decline the pizza. But I didn't.

Let me explain the pizza situation. I handle the QNFT program at work and I schedule people to come in for gas mask fit tests. When I took over the program last June we were at 92% but it wasn't accurate because the list of names we had was severly outdated. I got listings from 50% of the squadrons and got us up to 100%. At this time, I was working for the Commander for 2 months but still found time to take care of my program and got people in. My big boss gave us $$ for a pizza party. They ordered pizza and let me know it was there and didn't even ask about what I liked. I just so happen to dislike meat and only eat veggie pizza. They asked everyone else in the office what they wanted, but didn't even bother to ask me--the one who got these people in. I was highly insulted and my feelings were deeply hurt. Fast forward to the present. I got a more accurate listing, our rate went down to the 70's, we got back to 92%, so we got another pizza party. We decided to do it today and I finally got the damn veggie pizza. I could've and should've declined pizza, but I had made it a point to make my other boss feel bad (I even did so today) so I felt obligated to eat it. I only had two small pieces so it's not like I pigged out. Nevertheless, I still feel like shit for eating it.

I was just wondering how others dealt with things getting in the way of their progress.

Ouch

Maybe 200 pushups in one day isn't a bright idea. I only knocked out 30 so far today. Those few were very painful. I don't know that I will get remotely close to 200. I'll be lucky to get to 50. But it sure feels good to feel the burn!

I'm feeling better now

Dinner was yum! Turkey burgers (93% lean turkey, 2 jalapenos, 1/2 onion Teriyaki sauce), broccoli, and green beans with tarragon, dill, and crushed red peppers. I was hoping to have Brussels Sprouts but found 5 packages of broccoli instead. Bummer. The turkey lit me up though. I added one whole jalapeno then I seeded the rest. I think every other bite had my mouth blazing. I just so happen to LOVE spicy food. For starters, I am originally from Louisiana so hot sauce is part of every meal. Also, when I was pregnant with #3, I craved jalapenos. I couldn't get enough. I ate them with everything--spaghetti, pizza, burgers....Even after I had her I still had this obsession. It's toned down quite a bit now, but I still love them.

No workout today. I am calling it an off day. I did knock out 200 pushups as of right now (190 at work, 10 more at home) and 150 crunches. My body is pretty sore from the Wii and I can already feel my arms getting sore from all those pushups. I'm not trying to justify NOT working out, I'm just saying that I'm sore and I'm not doing it. I'm not even getting any Wii time...at least I don't think I am.

Have I mentioned that I think they put crack in Smart Water? Okay, I am not serious when I say that, but I am addicted to the stuff. I normally HATE water, but I can't get enough of this stuff. It leaves me thirsty, thus wanting to drink more to quench my thirst.

It's only 9, but I am exhausted. I think I was asleep before 10 last night. I am going to change the baby's diaper, make my tuna, then call it a night. I want to do some reading but I think I should just call it quits and get some sleep. I am one of those people that need at least 8 hours of sleep.

#*@!@@((^#@!

I HATE HATE HATE this Mireana IUD. Do you hear what I am saying? I adore the fact that it is stopping me from getting pregnant and it's good for 4 more years, but give me a break. I got my period like 2 weeks ago and I went to take a bath and saw red (not just anger). How is this possible???? Hello...my uterus just shed two weeks ago. This isn't nearly as bad as Depo Provera--I had my period for a year. Seriously. Everyday for a year. Then I had nothing for two years. Once it started again, I went to some other kind of birth control then my (ex) husband got a vasectomy. This isn't THAT bad, but give me a freaking break. I'm already dealing with 8 day periods instead of the usual 5. Now this? WTF??????????

It's been a long weekend

I'm glad to be home. Friday I had to spend 3 hours in the car getting my step daughter. Then Saturday I spent about 4.5 hours going to get my daughters then going to San Angelo. Then today I was stuck in the car for about 8 hours. Sure, we made a few stops. But still....we had to take #1 and # 2 home, then take my step daughter 1/2 to her house. This travelling really gets to me.

#1-It consumes all of my weekend. So much time is spent in the car and so little time is spent doing anything else.

#2-Forget eating right. When you spend that much time in the car, you have to grab what is convenient. I did pack some things in a cooler; I may have to pack meals for myself (tuna, salads, fruit, etc.). Sure, everyone else could benefit from eating healthy foods over the fast foods. I'll just have to see how that works out. I am much too tired to think about it now.

#3-Working out. What's that? Working out is challenging too. I guess I could bring free weights. I could also leave my kids in the room with 3 little girls while I went to the fitness facility on site at the hotel. But that's not very fair to him. I need to figure out how to incorporate working out in the mix too. Again, I'm too tired for that.

And please don't get me started on the days that I have to go down there, drive back, then do it the next day. I can't stay in a hotel all the time. There are times when Clint has to work and I am not staying in a hotel with three little girls. I just don't feel safe.

(For those of you that don't know, my daughters live with my ex. When we got a divorce, they lived with both of us. Then I got married and was living 70 miles away and we didn't want to move them from their schools so I got them on weekends (holidays, summer time, etc. and they were so close, I could see them whenever). Well, a year and a half later, he had to move because of his job. Now they're 4 hours away. People tell me that I should've fought it but you know what, they were use to being with him primarily, and they're closer to his mom and dad--who are the only grandparents they have in their lives, so we thought it would be easier for them to make the move. My thoughts to those that don't like it is this: Until you walked a mile in my shoes, back off.

Moving on....sometimes I just need a break. Sure, we get one weekend where we're not travelling all over the place. But I still have the baby. I never get much "me" time. I'm not complaining. I'm just saying that I don't have the luxury to say "Okay, I'm going to the gym from this time to this time." I have to make it fit in my schedule.

Alright, I am off to finish cooking. My husband is playing the Wii but he's bitching at me for being on the computer. Again, no time for myself. I guess I have to sit there and watch him. Sure, we could play 2 player, but I am cooking and don't want to play. BESIDES...my body is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sore from that thing. It even hurt to bowl yesterday (on the Wii).

Holy Shizit!

I just had the BEST workout of my life. It was bad ass. And you're SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO going to laugh at me when I tell you what I did. I was playing a video game. Not just any video game. I was boxing on my new Wii. My arms were punching at my opponent. This thing is so bad ass. In addition to boxing, I played tennis, golf, and baseball. By far, my favorite is boxing. It was pretty realistic, minus getting punched in the face! I am so excited to have this Wii. It really takes video gaming to the next level with the interaction. I'm not sure if all video games on the Wii has physical interaction or if some are like all others where the only thing required is to have your bum planted firmly on the couch. I read today that Wii Fit is coming out in May and there will be things associated with it like Yoga. How cool is that? Getting in shape to a video game! I'm also stoked about getting Lego Star Wars because I heard you move the remote around for your light saber. That's SOOOOOOOOOOO cool! Now you might think I am insane. Let me tell you, for the most part I hate video games. I really haven't played these things since the days of Mario Brothers, like 18 years ago. I did play Halo on X Box and X Box 360, but I was by far from an avid player. I really think I can get hooked on this Wii though. And it's not because the games are interesting. It's because I was working my butt off trying to knock my opponent out...which btw, I got THREE knock outs!!! May arms are seriously burning from this! Laugh laugh laugh all you want. I think everyone should get one of these things.

Because I need to cook dinner

I WAS going to have turkey burgers with jalepenos along with broccoli and brussels sprouts, but my husband set the turkey on the cabinet and it's no where near thawed. I could very quickly thaw some talapia, but I'm not feeling it. Instead, I am going to cook Potato Leek Soup from "The Eat Clean Diet." I'm anxious to try it! I am so desperately trying to get more protein in my diet and this isn't helping! I am not much of a meat eater and I don't care for eggs, so getting more protein is quite a challenge! I have been eating tuna everyday, so that helps. But potatoes don't help.

I went to the gym today and walked/ran on the treadmill for 20 mins. When the incline hit 6, I was about to scream because my calves were burning from 'Get Ripped 1000' the other night. OUCH. I only completed half of the video but Jari Love kicked my butt. Hopefully I will finish the rest tonight!

On a different note, I am going to work out SO much more. I get 1 hour for lunch every day. Guess what. I have FREE access to a decent gym that is about 1 minute from my office (and that includes walking to the car, driving there, and walking in the gym). If I come back from the gym and eat while working, my boss has NO problem with that. I have NO excuse to NOT work out. NONE. Sure, sometimes I run errands at lunch but there's really no reason that I can't do that after work. Ahhhh....the joy of enlightenment!

I'm off to cook. I will try to post pics (and recipe if you'd like) after dinner!

Reflection and Regrouping

I have been doing a lot of thinking these past few days. I am almost 29 years old, I have three children, and I am very unhappy with my body. I don't plan on having any more children so I am very eager to get my "old" body back. However, I am pretty bummed that I haven't reached my pre-pregnancy weight (115 lbs). My baby is 14 months old and by the time my other two were this age, I was at my pre-pregnancy weight. Could my age be a factor? Or is it the fact that I am not trying nearly as hard as I did with them to get rid of the weight? More to come on that note.

I considered hiring an online trainer. I looked into it and have thought a lot about it. Had I not purchased a sofa and love seat, I probably would've spent the $$. But I didn't. And after considering it some more, I decided that I need to do this on my own. I will not get my ideal body on my own. There's so much I have to learn. However, I really haven't been giving it 100% this past year. Maybe once I give it my 100%, I will see some results. Then once I hit a plateau and can not go any further, I will consult a professional. Some of you may be laughing and thinking that I might as well give it up and hire someone so I can see the results sooner. But I can't do that. I would feel like a failure because I truly haven't even tried. I mean, sure I have tried. But I haven't given it my all. Kelly O was working her butt off but didn't see the results she wanted so she hired a trainer. At this point, I would feel foolish if I followed in her foot steps because I am not even working 1/2 as hard as she was. Maybe if I put in an effort like she did, I would see the results I want to see. I don't want to be in a competition. While the prospect sounds interesting, my stomach is too jacked up from babies and a hacked appendectomy to even consider it. Maybe after having a tummy tuck I could get on stage, but I wouldn't feel right because in a way I cheated to get there while all those other women worked their ass off to be there. That's really a moot point. The point is that I want to be toned and trimmed. I was 115 lbs but I wasn't toned at all. I don't like being "sinnny fat." Perhaps I CAN get there on my own. I can at least get part of the way on my own. At this point, if I hired someone and got a great body as a result, I couldn't take any credit for it at all.

I'd like to share the story of my friend Gia. I met her several years ago in college. She once told me she was a stripper and I could hardly believe it. Gia was a bit overweight, so imagining her as a stripper wasn't easy. Gia has gained quite a bit more weight since our first meeting. I try to be a positive infulence and encourage weight loss, but I don't nag. She recently told me she got a gym membership and was going to go to Spin Class XX nights a week and hit the weight room XX nights. Great plan. Then I asked her about the spin class. She didn't make it. Asked again. Still didn't make it. Excuse after excuse rolled out of her mouth. The other night she told me she and her sister are going to OKC this weekend to try out for "The Biggest Loser." While I think it would be AWESOME if they got to be on the show, I am a little disappointed to hear about this. It saddens me that she won't lose the weight on her own, or won't even try, but she will do it for a show. Don't get me wrong, she has made some half-hearted attempts. She cut out some of the junk in her and her family's life and lost like 15 lbs in a month. She said she wasn't dieting, they were just eating healthy. They work out for 15-20 minutes a day at her job, so she's trying there. But has she REALLY tried? Has she worked her butt off for months--working out and eating right--but hit the end of the rope and turned to the show as her last resport? NO. She's going there as a first resort. She's turning to them for a "quick fix" instead of trying it out herself. **Disclaimer...I have NEVER seen "The Biggest Loser" but I am certain they DO work their butts off. I think I saw a commercial once and they were REALLY going at it. I am not saying it's a quick fix as in swallowing a magic pill. I hope you understand what I mean as you read this post as a whole.** I would be more inspired by the person that did all she could on her own, then went on the show to get help. I don't find it inspiring to see someone that has basically done nothing to better themselves then went on the show just because they could. Again, please don't get me wrong. It would be GREAT for her and her sister to go on the show. I would love to see them lose weight no matter how they do it. I just wish they would make an honest effort on their own.

Now, let's tie this in to my story. How can I "judge" Gia and be disappointed that she really hasn't tried it on her own when I am in the SAME boat. I workout maybe 3X a week, and it's half-hearted at that. I try to watch what I eat, but there is always room for improvement. So isn't my hiring a trainer similar to Gia going on "The Biggest Loser?" It would be a whole different story if she and I BOTH were working our butts off THEN we turned to a trainer and "The Biggest Loser" however, that isn't the case at hand.

Maybe I am nuts and I am being too hard on myself. With Hanna I HAD to get the weight off. I was in the Air Force and had 6 months to get below my weight max (143 lbs). Since I was losing the weight, I went ahead and got back to my pre-pregnancy weight. With Hailey, she was 6 months old before I began to lose weight. I was 148 and when I looked in the mirror I saw a fat cow. This time was different. When I looked in the mirror at 135, I was OKAY with my weight. I didn't see a fat cow so I guess that's why I haven't tried as hard to get it off. That's no excuse but that's the only reason I can think of. I'm not whining tonight saying "Hey you guys, I have worked my bum off for 14 months--I eat a perfect diet, I work out 7 days a week, but I am stuck 15 lbs from my goal weight." Instead I am whining, being truthful saying "Hey you guys, I have basically sat on my ass for the past year and haven't done much at all to get rid of those 15 lbs."

So, I am going to embark on a new 12 week challenge. If I start now, I will finish one week after my 29th birthday. (The old 12 week plan was 12 weeks to get ready for my 5K, which MAY not happen because the other team members won't pay their fees and really aren't training) I need to focus. I need to do this. If I give it my all and REALLY try but don't get anywhere near where I hope to be, THEN I will hire someone.

This one is for Laura

As Laura requested, I am posting a pic of #3 (the reason I am fat), eating a popsicle. If it were up to me, she wouldn't have had it. It was my husbands idea to give it to her in the bath. Needless to say, most of it melted. But here's a pic of it anyway. I think she thought it was cold.

More pics! There's one for you Kelly O.

I can't show you breakfast because I was a naughty girl and had 1.5 breakfast burritos. They were small, but still....

Meal #2 was 1 can of tuna with green onions, pickles, water chestnuts, and mustard on 1 piece of Organic Whole Grain Bread. I also had a side of broccoli and cheese (60 calories).

Meal #3 was 1 packet Brussels Sprouts (45 cals), 1/2 chicken breast, 1/2 cup potato, and about 5 baby carrots.
Meal #4 was 5 Morningstar Farms Buffalo Wings (200 calories) and a side of broccoli and cheese. I also had 1/2 banana. And I had some coffee.
Kelly, this one is for you. I am NOT trying to show off how messy my bathroom cabinet is. There are two points to this pic. #1-Look, I have a cheesy bathroom pic with too much flash. #2-If you look hard enough, you will see a little bump on my bum. My former flat ass is getting some slight curvage! You have to look really hard though.
I got through 40 minutes of Jari Love's Get Ripped 1000. The baby was ready to get out of her bed and she hasn't gone back to sleep so I am hanging it up for the night. I still have to do 50 crunches to complete that goal. Fortunately, the 50 push ups were taken care of while doing the above mentioned workout!

That's all I have! I am exhausted. And this baby is making me tired watching her run around everywhere. Good night!

I have pictures!

Well, two pictures out of three isn't bad. I was trying to upload the picture from Clint's dinner, but that didn't work.

So what do I have here?

This was my lunch. It looked/sounded way more appealing than it turned out. I had 1 packet whole grain apple cinnamon oatmeal with 2 tbsp homemade trail mix and 1/3 sliced banana. It sounded great to me, but it wasn't all that once it hit my mouth. I don't know the calorie count. The oatmeal has 150 calories. I'll do the math for the rest later.

And this is dinner. Here you will find broccoli and cheese (60 calories) and tuna made with green onions, pickles, water chestnuts (for crunch) and mustard. I also added in some flax seed oil. To the left you will see a salad made with lettuce, broccoli, green onions, flax seed oil, rice wine vinegar, and 2 squirts of rasberry vinagrette salad dressing (10 calories for the dressing I think). YUM!!

I was super stuffed afterward. What did Clint have? 3 small baked potatoes with Wolf canned chili with beans, sour cream, green onions, and cheese. I will admit that I had one small bite. But I think my dinner is much better than what I made for him. And FYI, that was what he requested. Otherwise, he would've been eating what I ate.

I did not have ANY cookies today. Clint fed the baby about 16 cookies today, but I didn't eat any. And I LOVE girl scout cookies and I love the soft chocolate chip cookies Clint bought. I am so proud of myself!

One last thing before I close. I am addicted to Smart Water. I think it has crack in it. I usually HATE water and it's an act of God for me to drink 64 ounces. I actually do well to get in 64 ounces of all liquids combined. Seriously. I do not drink hardly any liquid. I think I'm part camel. However, since finding this Smart Water, I have been SO THIRSTY. I think it's the crack taking it's toll and the outcome is I need to drink more!!! The only problem is I am having a hard time finding it here in BFE. I found it at Target in San Angelo (5 hours away) and was going to purchase it at the Abilene Target but NO it wasn't sold there. My dear husband told me I could get it on base so I bought a bottle then went back the next day and there wasn't any. Then I located it at Wal-Mart and bought 3 bottles then went back the next day for more to find they were sold out. WHAT. Oh come on people. This is the ONLY water I drink and actually crave. Can't you all drink something else? For the love of Bob.

Alright, have a fanfreakingtastic night. I am going to finish watching Serendipity. No work tomorrow, but I do have to go to Lawton (70 miles away). Yippee.

Happy Sunday!

I finally figured out how to set the self timer on my camera. The only problem is that I can’t get it at the right height to take pictures of myself. Maybe today will be the day…..just maybe!

I bought “Get Ripped 1000” last night. It’s the only DVD at Hastings that dealt with weights. I want to incorporate more weights into my life! I’ll let you know how that turns out!

I’m off to make coffee! I’ll update more later!

Good morning!

Well that was a waste of a post. I just spent 15 minutes on a post only for blogger to tell me there was an error with my post. And as I try to return to the content, it's gone. Imagine that. First I can't spell check, then I can't add pics, and now I can't even post. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Good morning!

I don't have a whole lot planned for today. Well, I *do* but I don't. My plans are to clean out my car and clean up the house some. Doesn't sound like a lot, but trust me, it is! I was supposed to go to San Angelo today but it's icy outside. (At least that's what the weather says). If Clint gets home from work soon enough, we may go down there. With that said, I need go get moving! I most definitely want to clean the kitchen and the car. The baby is sleeping and as much as I want to take a nap, I will refrain! If Clint doesn't get home early, I think I hear Tae Bo and Yoga calling my name!

On another fitness note, the 1 million pushup challenge has begun. I did my 50 sit ups AND crunches yesterday. My body is a little sore today. I am not doing *girl* pushups either. With that said, I can only do like 10 at a time. Hehehehehehehe. Now the crunches are another animal. I can crank out 50 at a time, so long as I haven't eaten prior to that. I tried that yesterday. Ick.

Clint found his camera. It was right behind the bag. I plugged my batter in. We got some cute pics of the baby eating a popsicle, but none of my before shots. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR....

Alright fans, I am off to clean. Happy Saturday!

Oh I wish...

I knew where my husbands camera was. My battery is dead. All I can find is the crap Olympus. (We both had Sony Cybershots). I see his case. But no camera. If this house wasn't such a freaking mess, maybe I could locate it. GRRRRRRRRRRR......

I was going to take a pic of dinner...not that it would do one ounce of good considering my photo upload thing isn't working.

The turkey chili looks YUM...I ate about 1/2 cup as it was cooking and I am stuffed.

Here's the ingredients:
2 lbs lean ground turkey
2 cans kidney beans (drained)
2 cans diced tomatoes
1/2 onion
2 jalepenos
1 packet chili seasoning
garlic salt

I am trying to eat as clean as possible. Eventually I would like to replace the canned beans with dried ones (that are cooked of course) and the tomatoes with fresh ones. Oh, and OF COURSE the chili seasoning with chili powder, red pepper, etc.

Wish I could show you dinner....

Feeling better

I am pleased to report that I am feeling better. FINALLY.

I am not pleased to report that my spellcheck doesn't work nor does my picture insert. Hmmmm......Doesn't surprise me at all.

I haven't worked out this week. Bad girl. Maybe tonight. I honestly haven't felt well enough to do anything. I think I had a strand of the flu that's going around. It honestly wasn't as bad as some people had.

I still need to get my pics taken. I want to see my results! Of course, these would be the "before" shots.

We're starting a push up challenge tomorrow at work. The goal is to do a million pushups. Will I do that many? Oh hell no. We form teams of ten...and I'm presuming there's at least ten teams. Anyway, we all do 50 pushups AND situps/crunches for 100 days. First a marathon now this. Geeze.....

I want to start doing some more intense weight training. I hate the bowflex and Billy's 3lb bar isn't cutting it. Guess I need to pull the barbells back out! I need to talk to Kelly to see what DVD's she suggests for this!

I'm off to take a nap. I need to start dinner in 50 minutes so if I am lucky the baby will sleep until then so I can nap. I *should* workout but I just ate and that's a Billy Blanks no-no.

Food for today:
Coffee (100)
1 slice organic whole wheat toast (???100???I'm too lazy to go look)
Salad with turkey and muenster cheese with honey mustard dressing (200)
4 dried figs (gross....I LOVE figs but dried isn't fun)(????100????)
Mixed nuts (I ate at least 2 servings...so that is a whopping 320 calories. BAD Sherry)
Dried cranberries (????100????)
5 Morningstar Farms Buffalo Wings (200)
Ranch (50)
2 packages of Brussels Sprouts (90).

Until I tell you the exact amount AFTER my nap, I'm going to say I consumed: 1260

I'll probably eat a little turkey chili for *dinner*. Not much. Just a little if I am hungry.

I lost 9 lbs in 24 hours. Keep reading for my magical weight loss solution

If you haven't read the post before this one, about water weight, please read it before reading this one.

Apparantly, the gods in Athena were listening and send down Slovor--god of stomach virus. He inflicted a dose of stomach virus on me that left me puking for 7 hours. At times I thought this was deadly as I was wishing for death and thought I was going to die. But seeing my scale go down 9 lbs is a WONDERFUL thing...even if my head is still pounding. And the 20 billion popcicles I consumed didn't hamper my weight loss. Hehehehehehehe.

I guess it was water weight afterall!

Things I've recently realized

I just realized some things about two minutes ago. I've actually thought about it before, but this time it seemed to click. In another two weeks I'll be posting the same thing as I will likely forget it and have a melt down. So what did I realize?

I'm not going to have the body I want in the morning. It's going to take time. I sit here reading others fitness blogs and I want to be like them then it hits me: They didn't get like that overnight! I recently took 2 weeks off to sulk. I'm really getting back on track. Who cares if my stupid scale just told me I was 137 lbs and it was telling me I was 128 just before I started working out? I can look at my body (arms and legs) and see changes. Now my midsection is killing me as it looks like I am 5 months pregnant. Not sure what's up with that. I have the Mireana IUD and each month there's evidence that I am NOT pregnant. I had on a funky top the other day and one of the daycare workers asked if I was pregnant again. Nope, just fat. Then she put her hand on my belly and the top went in quite a bit to reveal that I wasn't preggo. Anyway, back to the story at hand.

The last time I started running, I started to gain weight. So I stopped running. Not because of the weight gain, because of a temp change in positions at work and no time to go to the gym. My weight went back down. I need to focus, keep working out, and I will see results. Good thing I don't weigh myself that often--I'd have a heart attack. Maybe this weight gain is just water weight since it is that time of the month....

Okay, that last sentence was a JOKE. I LOVE to make fun of people that have silly excuses for gaining weight or not losing. "It's my time of the month so I am retaining water...that's why I haven't lost weight." "I only drank 60 ounces of water today instead of 64, so I must be retaining water....that's why I haven't lost weight." "It's mid cycle, I retain water when I ovulate, that's why I gained 6 lbs." "I got off the left side of the bed instead of the right, that made me retain water, that's why I am heavier today." Okay, I am being facetious. Sure, water retention/bloating MAY cause a weight gain, but it irritates me when people use this as a crutch. Um...maybe it IS water..or maybe you ate more..or maybe you didn't work out as much. Does it always have to be water???

I'll take a midol and tell you if I lose the 11 lbs.....

BTW

I may have taken two weeks off to mope around, but I can look at my thighs and see a difference. I noticed that when I got in the bath tub tonight. (When I realized it would NEVER fill up)

Overeating

I don't think I over ate today, but I sure feel like I did.

Whole Grain Oatmeal-150
Pepperjack Cheese-80
Turkey Meatloaf-200
Baked Potato and Ranch-200
Mustard Greens-50
Fruit Cup-140
Pasta-25
Taste Test Veggie Chili-50
Coffee-100

So let's add this. 995. Guess I haven't overeaten. I will have dinner in a bit--Veggie chili--at a max that will be 300 calories. So my total will be 1295. I guess I'm okay.

I didn't make it to the gym today. The baby had a fever so I left her home with Clint. He only had 5 hours of sleep so I skipped lunch and came home early to take care of her and he could catch a nap. How nice of me right? I WILL get in Tae Bo and Yoga tonight. I can't clean, wash dishes, or wash clothes because I have absolutely NO hot water pressure. Long story short, we had a leak, the guy replaced the water main, now I have no hot water pressure. He said he checked it and it was fine. If you turn it on it appears to be fine then it trickles out. Now the cold water comes out like there's no tomorrow. But not the hot water. My husband thought the hot water heater needed to fill up, so against my better judgment, I didn't call the plumber. Once I did call, it was too late for him to come out today. He'll be out tomorrow. And, I looked at the water meter outside and the needle is moving which indicates there is STILL a leak. My fear is that I just paid $825 and he didn't fix the problem. Maybe he didn't check it out like he should have and he *thought* he fixed the problem, but he didn't. I'm really hoping he doesn't charge me to come out tomorrow, since he clearly didn't complete his job.

I am going to bed after I chug this coffee

I was actually thinking I would go to bed after I write this. I would really love to show you why, but the battery is dead on my camera and I can't find Clint's. I see the case, but no camera. I guess I'll tell you. My poor baby isn't feeling well and was laying on the floor. I was going to type a quick update then was going to lay in bed with her. She has a slight fever and I gave her some tylenol. I thought some mommy time was needed so I was going to lay with her. NOPE. She sacked out on the floor. I guess taking a picture of that would be pointless because I wasn't going to bed because of a sleeping baby. Maybe I should've said this is why I am NOT going to bed.

Nevertheless, I won't be going to bed considering I just drank a HUGE cup of coffee. My sweet tooth was "aching" and instead of eating Captain Crunch Berry Colossal Crunch, I opted for some coffee.

I had a kick butt day. I went to the gym where I ran/walked for 30 minutes. On Tuesday I did 2 minute intervals; today I did 2.5. I am going to do the interval training a bit more then I am going to move on. I got this plan from runnersworld.com. I am deviating from it some. Example: I was expected to run at 3.5 MPH. That's the speed I use for walking. 4.5 MPH is actually a good pace for me to "run", as far as my being able to keep up and not get too tired too fast, but that is awfully slow. I did most of my run at 4.7 with the last 2.5 minutes at 5.0 MPH. So yeah, right now I am supposed to be running at 3.5 MPH according to Runners World. HAHAHAHA. I'm doing the intervals as suggested (although I was supposed to walk 2 run 1...). I had come up with a tentative workout schedule but that got jacked up for whatever reason. Here is what I have planned:

M,W,F-Running (30 mins), Tae Bo (30 mins), Yoga (45 mins)
T, Th-Pilates Class (45 mins), Tae Bo (45 mins), Yoga Booty Ballet (20 mins)
Sat-Off
Sun-Tae Bo

I am not certain I want to do pilates and yoga back to back. That can be changed. And on days that I have to go get Clint's daughter on Friday night, I will have to skip the evening workout and get that in on Saturday.

So last night I skipped Tae Bo and Yoga. Not sure why. I *think* I was jacked up because I didn't get to run so that threw off my mojo. Today I got it straight in my head and ran instead of going to Pilates. Schedule still off. But tonight I did what I was supposed to do--45 minutes of Tae Bo and 20 minutes of Yoga Booty Ballet. I'm on track now!

What did I eat today?
Apple Cinnamon Whole Grain Oatmeal (150)
South Beach Turkey Wraps (240)
Cottage Cheese and Fruit (160)
Cottage Cheese and Fruit (160)
Pepper Jack Cheese (80)
Brussels Sprouts (45)
Potato with Ranch and Hot Sauce (200)
Salad (50)
Mustard Greens (50)
Turkey Meatloaf (200)
coffee (100)
Total=1435

Before I added those calories I was abotu to freak out. It looked like a lot. This morning when I was running I was SOOOOOOOOO hungry. I wasn't hungry before I left. So I woofed down the wraps AND the cottage cheese/fruit. Then I went out of town and came back and was starving at 4pm, so I ate more cottage cheese and fruit. Then I ate some cheese about 45 minutes later because I was hungry. Then when I got home an hour later I ate the potato and brussels sprouts. I was truly hungry when I ate. If you read "Thin Within" you shouldn't eat until you're hungry. But lately, if I wait until I am hungry, I tend to eat a lot more at once. I stop eating but I am STILL hungry. Grrrr.....

Alright, my eyeball is hurting. I suffer from occular migraines and I think this is one. Not nearly as bad as a real migraine, but not fun. At all. I am feeling drowsy, in spite of drinking a gallon of coffee. I do need to put the baby in the bed and I am sure it will wake her and gosh, I can't let her sleep alone because she doesn't feel well. Hehehehehehehe. Good night!

Rant....

Sorry I have been out of commission for the past few days. #3 had not been feeling well so I have spent a lot of time on the couch with her. I started to write a post titled "It hurts when I swallow" but I felt too bad to get past line 2. My throat suddenly started hurting. I have been dealing with this for a few weeks--my throat would hurt a little in the mornings, then my husband would complain about his hurting, then mine would hurt. Then yesterday out of the blue, it started hurting for no reason. It felt fine if I didn't swallow, but as soon as I did, it felt like a million HOT razor blades escalated down my throat. Not fun. I couldn't find any Zicam or any decent Zinc Lozenges, so I went to bed. Today, it still hurts. Since I felt fine otherwise, I purchased Ricola drop but that didn't help. I finally bought some more Zinc lozenges. Maybe I should've bought some Zicam because I don't feel well now. #3 was sick today (no idea whats wrong...sleepy, fussy at times...fever...could be teething) so I brought her home to Clint and went back to work then came home early so he could go to work. I ended up taking a 3 hour nap with her on the couch and woke up feeling like death. My head hurts and I feel tired. This CAN'T happen to me (getting something more than a sore throat) because we're going to San Angelo tomorrow to spend the weekend with #1 and #2. I want to eat at this GREAT Chinese restaurant. There's no decent restaurants around here, so going to this place is the highlight of my trip (besides seeing the girls). Besides runnign the other day, I haven't worked out all week. Like I said, I've been dealign with a "sick" baby for most of the week now I feel like crap. My intention was to workout tonight but that won't be happeneing unless the pain reliever I took kicks in. Oh well, I have 12 weeks from Sunday to get in GREAT shape for the marathon and I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to it!

Now on to the complaining. When did people stop being nice? When did society stop thinking about themselves and did things for others for a change? When did it turn into me, me, me, instead of you? Why is it that you can't get people to do things unless it benefits them? I will not get in to the full story here. If you want to know, ask, and I will tell you but I am not typing the whole thing here. But it comes down to this: People aren't willing to help others with weight loss if it's not going to benefit them. I think these type of people are ASSHOLES. I mean, it's one thing if you're asking me to do something that's totally an inconvience to me...like paying for a babysitter and driving 28 miles to go to they gym with you. It's not going to happen. However, I WILL do my best to work with you. Maybe I will suggest we go during our lunch hour or something like that. But I am not going to flat out abandon someone that needs "help." Yet recently I see that people won't contribute to the successful weight loss of others unless it benefits THEM. And it's not like they're asked to do something really inconvienient either. Asshole.

That's all I have. I'm off to wash clothes! Oh, spell check isn't working and I have a bandage on my finger so you will find typos. Sorry.