Friday, May 2, 2008

I'm on fire!

Let's just hope it's still burning tomorrow!

I confronted my demons, I have shared my downfalls, I have recognized what I need to do, now I need to implement it.

I won't go into much detail here, but I am not seeing the results I want. Yes, I am seeign result, but not like I think I should see. I've assessed what's happened, what's going wrong. It's bascially my fault. The details are privy information, but I got it all out there and hopefully I will be on track now.

Forget that last statement. There's no HOPEFULLY about it. I WILL be on track.

I told myself this morning that I WOULD drink a gallon if water. Guess what. I am staring at 12 remaining ounces.

On a side note..have you ever heard a song that takes you back to a certain time. Maybe not a certain memory...but a certain time? I'm checking out some of my favorite songs on Youtube and I am almost in tears here. I'm brought back to a very happy, yet extremely sad time in my life. I had new found freedom and I was having the time of my life. At the same time, I was going through a divorce, I was on my own for the first time in my life, and my law school career was ending. It was the best time of my life but the worst at the same. Those things led me to where I am today--remarried with a new addition. I don't dwell on the past. I refuse to. What happened happened. It's over. I can't go back so there's no need to ponder if I would've done anything differently. Nevertheless, I had some good times. Some of the best. Maybe I need to face those demons---release the bad, remember the good, and let it go. Here's to 2005! (P.S. I was 115 lbs back then and I was smokin' hot)

1 comment:

Kelly O said...

Honey you are smoking hot NOW!